D-day. The day of my interview.
I am super-stressed as a result of problems with new boyfriend which culminated in an agreement to have dinner to sort things out. For some reason, perhaps the fact that I actually quite like him, the whole thing has being doing laps in my head at an alarming pace.
I have a lot of work ahead of me. Firstly, I don't know anything about the company. Research. I have perused the website before and it's all Spanish to me. For some reason google translate doesn't change that one iota.
More pressingly, my appearance. One of the perks of working from home is that I often spend 15 hours of every day in pajamas. I don't think this will quite cut it in PR.
I track down my pair of black pants and my only jacket and discover they are more than a little creased. I don't have an iron, so I head off to find a place that will iron them. It turns into an epic mission of several 'just two more blocks in that direction' and before I know it I'm halfway to Guatemala.
Now, the question of what to wear under the jacket. I head off to the Zona Rosa and get sidetracked buying a lovely pair of brown shorts and a little pinafore. And a white shirt for under the jacket.
I have also realised that I have been using the same lipstick for three years, and its brown tones don't work with the white base of my outfit. So I buy a pink-based lipstick.
Even I can't believe I have been in possession of one lipstick and two lips glosses (total) in the past three years.
I then discover that pink-based lippies make your teeth look yellow, and my steady diet of coffee and red wine has taken its toll on my pearly-used-to-be-whites. Fortunately, my teeth have always been a source of vanity and I dig up my teeth-bleaching kit.
While transforming my smile, I surf the web googling phrases like, "What is PR?"
I also message Vanessa, who's leaving the job, with some questions:
"Exactly who am I allowed to kiss? Is it wrong to kiss the boss?"
"No! That's fine."
"It's just that once I kissed the guy who sells fruit and veg at the market and Ara told me that was unnecessary here."
"Yes, Mexico is hard-core with the class thing: vendors, cleaners and market people are out. But bosses are fine."
The other problem is that the median height of everyone in the office seems to be five-foot. And with my black shoes, I am around six foot. I will be damned if I buy another pair of shoes though, so I will have to settle for bending down to kiss the boss and everyone else in the office.
I then give myself a manicure and pedicure. Pick up my freshly ironed clothes. There are a couple of things I lack:
- a suit
- a necklace
- any jewellery at all actually
- a leather belt
- perfume
I've never cared about any of these things except the leather belt, but suddenly I feel it. Will the boss notice when I kiss him, that a frangrance doesn't float up his nostrils. Does my neck look excessively bare? My fingers. My wrist?
I'm still not exactly sure what the job is.
I hop in a VW beatle cab and say, "Do you think it'll take us more than an hour to get to Coyuacan?"
"No," the cabbie replies, pulling out in front of a high-velocity truck, "We'll get there with enough time to have a coffee together."
I'll be surprised if we get there are all. I am almost regretting my mention of time constraints, as he has started driving as if I'm in labor. All the cars around us are beeping and I am feeling the road rage.
"So, you're a model then?" he asks.
If I was a model, would I be catching a VW beatle cab where death is more likely than arrival? No.
It's storming. It's the perfect weather where the air is heavy and lightening is striking the road 20 metres in front. He doesn't even jump as the thunder cracks right outside the window.
I look at him. He's got a young face and very heavy religious paraphenalia around his neck. We start chatting about Easter.
He's doing a three-day pilgrammage to some small town a few hours away by car. St Chelmo or something.
"Are you very religious?" I ask.
"Yes, well.. my wife had problems with her pregnancy. She was going to have to have an abortion but I promised God that if my daughter was born ok, I'd do the treck for three years. This is my fourth."
I find myself captivated by his story. He started dating his wife when he was 14. They got married when he was 18, and she was 21. The daughter is three now, she's fine. He's 21, and they have a son as well, called David. He does a pilgrammage on the 28th of every month as a result of a pact with God about David's health.
"So, are you going to have any more kids?" I ask.
"No."
"Yeah, you might run out of days in the year for walking hey?"
He laughs. He actually laughs.
He started driving when he was 14, and was driving buses at 15. He got caught, but paid the bribe. He was studying motor mechanics, but it wasn't worth it for the job opportunities and the time. Besides, he likes driving.
We like each other, this cabbie and I. He probably doesn't get to tell his story that often, and I am completely fascinated by his life. It is a world away from mine. But here we are together, in his little cab, chatting about life.
We arrive way early, so I tell him to do a block and drop me off at a cafe nearby. He gives me some final words of wisdom:
"Don't show you're nervous," he says, "Chilangos can tell, and they see it as weakness."
"I don't look nervous, do I?" I ask.
"Yes, you look a bit pink in the face."
I tip him 25 percent, and jump out into the rain. He was my favourite cab driver ever.
While killing half an hour, I exchange a couple of terse messages with Ignaki about the evening's arrangements.
The interview goes fine. The only moment of super-stress comes when he asks what I want to achieve in the job, over the next year.
It's really hard to spin shit, when you don't know what you're spinning shit about. What I really want to say is, "Well, my first step would be to find out the job description."
But I say, "Well, obviously it's a similar skill set, but still slightly different. So I want to learn all there is, and then do the job really well."
That is SO lame.
Then he asks me some weird questions. Are my friends Mexican or expat? Do I drive here? What do I do with myself, in my spare time? What do my parents do for a living? Have I had problems with security?
"I don't really arreglar (dress up) that much," I say, "So I don't think I'm a prime target for muggers."
"No, you don't really seem to wear jewellery," he says, looking at my hands.
"I have only been mugged in Ecuador, here it's just guys who grab your bottom and run away." And suddenly, I find myself telling him the arse-grabbing stories.
None of his questions make me feel uncomfortable. He has a fatherly, slightly distracted air about him and I like him a lot.
He tells me I have the job if I want it, pending two more interviews. One with the other director (the woman I kissed) and the other with an international relations director.
I walk out feeling elated and drained. There's still one harrowing event before the day is over: the conflict resolution dinner. I am tempted to suggest we just have drinks, in case I have to storm out before the mains arrive. But no, this will be my lesson in How To Express Anger Without Using the Word F*ck.
I decide against a red shirt and heels. That would be just inflammatory and spiteful. Then I set about the mandatory 40 minute waiting-for-Ignaki-to-arrive-late period, whilst dancing in front of the mirror to pass the time.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Saturday, March 31, 2007
GOIN' SURFIN'
As I wrote to Milly: "You know my maxim: if you've got a choice between eating and working, always choose the former. For this reason, I have decided to get a job."
Really, I was just being dramatic and my arse is still a very healthy size, but I have discovered that without the disincentive of a boss looking over my shoulder, the lure of itunes can be a bit much.
(My tip: John Mayer, Dreaming With a Broken Heart. Surely, one of the best songs ever written. "Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand? Would you get them if I did? No, you won't. Cause you're gone gone gone gone gone.
The only, and I say only problem with this line is that he switches from subjunctive tense 'would', to present tense 'won't' in a most disconcerting manner)
When Alberto, the International Man of Indecipherable Spanish, hit me with the information about a PR job that was up for grabs, I was ambivalent. That was more to do with the fact that I hadn't understood what he'd said, than any views I have on PR as a line of work.
But when I had ascertained the nature of his message, I began to warm to the idea. It's not that I have been looking for something, but sometimes when a wave rises under you, you have to ride it.
As Pam says, my main strengths are in being charming and pumping out well-written emails. These weighty skills are lost in journalism because the only benefactors of the emails are the people I'm sending stories to - and I'm not sure they care how well-crafted my emails are.
What's more, it's a seriously good job. I think. At this point I am still a little vague on what exactly is involved, but I know the girl who's vacating the position, so I decide to go down and find out a bit more.
The harrowing process of presenting oneself at a location of potential employment was exacerbated by the pure Spanish nature of conversation. This is a double-whammy because my level of Spanish drops in pressured situations, and my level of stress rises when I struggle to express myself in situations where it's important to make a good impression.
The climax came when I met her female boss. Not realising who she was, I walked into the office and kissed her. This is a normal Mexican greeting, but it was followed by a moment of extruciation when I discovered who she was. The conversation continues puttering along, while the internal dialogue in my head goes into overdrive,
"Did you just kiss the boss? Is it ok to kiss the boss? What if it's a sign of disrespect? Oh surely not, it's normal. But did you see the expression on her face? Yes, but maybe that's because you had to bend down to do it and you made her feel short. Oh no! Was it a mistake to wear heels?"
And so on and so forth. Meanwhile, the conversation has moved on to Australia's beaches. I tell her of course she should send her son for surfing lessons and she replies that perhaps I haven't realised just how dangerous surfing is. Waves, rocks, water, accidents.
I stop myself before telling her that we're all still alive and she should be more worried about sharks.
The final outcome is that the very charming director, Bruno, asks me back for an interview. A proper one. I still have no idea what the job entails.
It seems this wave has picked me up and I will ride it. Look out for rocks though.
Really, I was just being dramatic and my arse is still a very healthy size, but I have discovered that without the disincentive of a boss looking over my shoulder, the lure of itunes can be a bit much.
(My tip: John Mayer, Dreaming With a Broken Heart. Surely, one of the best songs ever written. "Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand? Would you get them if I did? No, you won't. Cause you're gone gone gone gone gone.
The only, and I say only problem with this line is that he switches from subjunctive tense 'would', to present tense 'won't' in a most disconcerting manner)
When Alberto, the International Man of Indecipherable Spanish, hit me with the information about a PR job that was up for grabs, I was ambivalent. That was more to do with the fact that I hadn't understood what he'd said, than any views I have on PR as a line of work.
But when I had ascertained the nature of his message, I began to warm to the idea. It's not that I have been looking for something, but sometimes when a wave rises under you, you have to ride it.
As Pam says, my main strengths are in being charming and pumping out well-written emails. These weighty skills are lost in journalism because the only benefactors of the emails are the people I'm sending stories to - and I'm not sure they care how well-crafted my emails are.
What's more, it's a seriously good job. I think. At this point I am still a little vague on what exactly is involved, but I know the girl who's vacating the position, so I decide to go down and find out a bit more.
The harrowing process of presenting oneself at a location of potential employment was exacerbated by the pure Spanish nature of conversation. This is a double-whammy because my level of Spanish drops in pressured situations, and my level of stress rises when I struggle to express myself in situations where it's important to make a good impression.
The climax came when I met her female boss. Not realising who she was, I walked into the office and kissed her. This is a normal Mexican greeting, but it was followed by a moment of extruciation when I discovered who she was. The conversation continues puttering along, while the internal dialogue in my head goes into overdrive,
"Did you just kiss the boss? Is it ok to kiss the boss? What if it's a sign of disrespect? Oh surely not, it's normal. But did you see the expression on her face? Yes, but maybe that's because you had to bend down to do it and you made her feel short. Oh no! Was it a mistake to wear heels?"
And so on and so forth. Meanwhile, the conversation has moved on to Australia's beaches. I tell her of course she should send her son for surfing lessons and she replies that perhaps I haven't realised just how dangerous surfing is. Waves, rocks, water, accidents.
I stop myself before telling her that we're all still alive and she should be more worried about sharks.
The final outcome is that the very charming director, Bruno, asks me back for an interview. A proper one. I still have no idea what the job entails.
It seems this wave has picked me up and I will ride it. Look out for rocks though.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
GUNS FOR... CYBER GUNS
Today I filed on this story:
INTRO:
One of the world's most crime-ridden cities is trying a novel approach to curbing violence, offering computers and Xboxes in exchange for guns.
Michelle Crowther reports from Mexico City.
VOICER:
Police kicked off the gun exchange program in one of Mexico City's most notorious neighbourhoods, Tepito, where last year alone there were 32 murders. High calibre weapons can be exchanged for computers, while owners can swap smaller guns for Xboxes or food and cash packages. The new push in Mexico's capital falls alongside President Felipe Calderon's national crackdown on crime – since taking office last December he has sent 24 thousand police and troops to drug cartel hotspots.
Michelle Crowther, Mexico City
I can just imagine the policy meeting. Everyone is sitting around scratching their heads:
"So, what should we give the potential murderers of the future to curb their violent tendencies?"
"I know, what about some mortal combat warfare games."
Oh good, training devices for the uninitiated. Kind of shooting themselves in the foot, aren't they?
INTRO:
One of the world's most crime-ridden cities is trying a novel approach to curbing violence, offering computers and Xboxes in exchange for guns.
Michelle Crowther reports from Mexico City.
VOICER:
Police kicked off the gun exchange program in one of Mexico City's most notorious neighbourhoods, Tepito, where last year alone there were 32 murders. High calibre weapons can be exchanged for computers, while owners can swap smaller guns for Xboxes or food and cash packages. The new push in Mexico's capital falls alongside President Felipe Calderon's national crackdown on crime – since taking office last December he has sent 24 thousand police and troops to drug cartel hotspots.
Michelle Crowther, Mexico City
I can just imagine the policy meeting. Everyone is sitting around scratching their heads:
"So, what should we give the potential murderers of the future to curb their violent tendencies?"
"I know, what about some mortal combat warfare games."
Oh good, training devices for the uninitiated. Kind of shooting themselves in the foot, aren't they?
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
EVE'S BAD APPLE: iTunes
Responsible for all the evil in the world.
One of the downsides of being stuck on the other side of the world, is that I don't have access to techs. I HATE technical stuff, so much so that I have never downloaded a song from iTunes until today.
Finally I did, in order to mix in a package on Cuban poetry. We buy the copyright, but do you think that makes a difference to whether it's a protected file or not?
No.
So iTunes has locked everything so that you can only play it on Apple devices.
What next?
The advice from my favourite tech on the other side of the world was "that's why using iTunes is a bad idea."
Oh. Good.
Well, Rhapsody (copyright free music) is not available in Mexico. The other copyright-free websites didn't have my particular ditty - Ruben Gonzalez, Campestre.
After going to all the trouble of finding and downloading JHymn (a conversion program) it can't seem to find my library. Changing my input channel to stereo mix (so as to record into Audacity - editing program - from within my computer) resulted in massive feedback and white noise.
So eventually I had to walk down to the camera shop, buy a CD, export to CD, rip it into Window Media Player, and then import it to Audacity.
Most notable quote from the famous poet I was editing was, "Cuba is amazing. What other country in the world has a population where every person can read?"
Apart from being wildly untrue.. ummm, what's the point of being able to read if you can't choose what you pour into those literate eyes of yours?
One of the downsides of being stuck on the other side of the world, is that I don't have access to techs. I HATE technical stuff, so much so that I have never downloaded a song from iTunes until today.
Finally I did, in order to mix in a package on Cuban poetry. We buy the copyright, but do you think that makes a difference to whether it's a protected file or not?
No.
So iTunes has locked everything so that you can only play it on Apple devices.
What next?
The advice from my favourite tech on the other side of the world was "that's why using iTunes is a bad idea."
Oh. Good.
Well, Rhapsody (copyright free music) is not available in Mexico. The other copyright-free websites didn't have my particular ditty - Ruben Gonzalez, Campestre.
After going to all the trouble of finding and downloading JHymn (a conversion program) it can't seem to find my library. Changing my input channel to stereo mix (so as to record into Audacity - editing program - from within my computer) resulted in massive feedback and white noise.
So eventually I had to walk down to the camera shop, buy a CD, export to CD, rip it into Window Media Player, and then import it to Audacity.
Most notable quote from the famous poet I was editing was, "Cuba is amazing. What other country in the world has a population where every person can read?"
Apart from being wildly untrue.. ummm, what's the point of being able to read if you can't choose what you pour into those literate eyes of yours?
Monday, March 26, 2007
WHEN WORLDS COLLIDE
Another week, another great weekend. To my chagrin, Gaby's party was situated in Santa Fe. It's one of DF's most cash-flushed suburbs, meaning that by implication everyone at the party would be bankers.
They were. It was really fun. We drank strange cocktails of cucumber, vodka, lemonade and ginger until I forgot that I was the most under-dressed person in the room (note to self: always ask location of party) and danced to Spanish pop songs.
The next day we drove back to Santa Fe for some pool time with Francine and Cachai.
M: Hey Gaby, check out that unrestrained child between his mum's legs in the front seat. (not noticing that the seat is located in a Porche)
G: Oh yeah, that's the owner of Televisa (main TV network here). Check out the envoy of cars behind them.
Three cars full of bodyguards. I mean, what would the bodyguards in the third car even DO if there was a problem? They'd still be arriving by the time Televisa's owner was dead, or the unrestrained kid had been plucked from the car by kidnappers.
Kind of ironic, that the kid's got six big burly men watching him but is probably more likely to die from flying through the windscreen on Mexico's crazy roads.
From then on we did a bodyguard-spotting exercise. Gaby - who went to school with lots of girls whose bodyguards had to accompany them to the movies - would point out a bodyguard-type car, and sure enough ... a big man would step out and help the little darling alight from the vehicle in front.
Lunch was fun, apart from a freak accident involving red wine and the sofa - AGAIN. I haven't even been eating that much beef lately, so I'm not sure where the karma is coming from this time.
Francine had just finished complimenting me on my jeans and shirt, I'd just finished admiring Cachai's couch, and Francine's red wine choice (Argentina) and then, bang, all the worlds collided. There was the tiniest patch of water on the kitchen floor as I was carrying two full glasses into the living room.. and well, you can guess the rest. Jeans. Shirt. Sofa.
Hooray for soda water. Consider that my handy household cleaning tip.
Ignaki drove me back to ... yes, Santa Fe for dinner. Absolutely stunning, and yes, he cooked.
And then the next day, back to Santa Fe to watch movies. Kind of starting to wish I either had a car, or fewer friends living in Santa Fe.
They were. It was really fun. We drank strange cocktails of cucumber, vodka, lemonade and ginger until I forgot that I was the most under-dressed person in the room (note to self: always ask location of party) and danced to Spanish pop songs.
The next day we drove back to Santa Fe for some pool time with Francine and Cachai.
M: Hey Gaby, check out that unrestrained child between his mum's legs in the front seat. (not noticing that the seat is located in a Porche)
G: Oh yeah, that's the owner of Televisa (main TV network here). Check out the envoy of cars behind them.
Three cars full of bodyguards. I mean, what would the bodyguards in the third car even DO if there was a problem? They'd still be arriving by the time Televisa's owner was dead, or the unrestrained kid had been plucked from the car by kidnappers.
Kind of ironic, that the kid's got six big burly men watching him but is probably more likely to die from flying through the windscreen on Mexico's crazy roads.
From then on we did a bodyguard-spotting exercise. Gaby - who went to school with lots of girls whose bodyguards had to accompany them to the movies - would point out a bodyguard-type car, and sure enough ... a big man would step out and help the little darling alight from the vehicle in front.
Lunch was fun, apart from a freak accident involving red wine and the sofa - AGAIN. I haven't even been eating that much beef lately, so I'm not sure where the karma is coming from this time.
Francine had just finished complimenting me on my jeans and shirt, I'd just finished admiring Cachai's couch, and Francine's red wine choice (Argentina) and then, bang, all the worlds collided. There was the tiniest patch of water on the kitchen floor as I was carrying two full glasses into the living room.. and well, you can guess the rest. Jeans. Shirt. Sofa.
Hooray for soda water. Consider that my handy household cleaning tip.
Ignaki drove me back to ... yes, Santa Fe for dinner. Absolutely stunning, and yes, he cooked.
And then the next day, back to Santa Fe to watch movies. Kind of starting to wish I either had a car, or fewer friends living in Santa Fe.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
YOU SHOULD BE DAN-CING-YEAH
Wow, first time I've been salsa dancing in Mexico. The bar is called MamaRhumba and I went with Julia and two of her american friends. Who knew 23 year olds could be so fun?
For the second time here, I had a night-time arse-grabbing incident. It is so weird.
The first time it happened was a ride-by assault a couple of months ago. He rode up, grabbed my arse and kept riding. Of course, I yelled 'F@#$ off', which was fairly ineffective because he kept stalking me for blocks until he could do it again. I yelled 'F@#$ off' again and that was that.
This time, I was walking along my street to Julia's when I heard rapid footsteps behind me. Your first thought at that point, is that you're about to get mugged. I was relieved to see that it was just a guy in a white business shirt passing me. He kept walking, then stopped ten metres in front of me, turned around and started running at me. On the way past he just swung out and slammed me in the derrier.
I stood there, stunned, my phone started ringing so I answered it. I was standing, talking, just watching him run away thinking, "You freak", when he turned around to look at me.
I hope he saw the disdain in my eyes, although from 50 metres it would have required him to be very long-sighted to do so.
I can't quite get my head around what a man gets out of grabbing a woman's bottom and then running away.
Honestly, if you were going to grab anything... wouldn't it be more lucrative to go for the handbag?
From there, I had a couple of medicinal tequilas and we headed to the salsa bar. I quickly discovered that both Julia's friends are terrible dancers, so I asked her how we were going to find people to dance with.
"You just stand near the dancefloor for about a minute,' she said, 'That's it.'
Julia's never had problems with confidence.
So, it's kind of like fishing. But, how do you know if you're going to catch a big fish, or a dud? Just luck?
"Generally only guys who dance well ask foreign girls to dance," she announces with authority.
We do the stand for a minute thing, and nothing happens. Uh oh. Is it me?
"This has never happened to me before," Julia says, "It must be you."
Julia's never had problems with confidence.
At that precise moment someone in black sails by and grabs my ... hand! So, we start dancing and as it happens, Miguel is like a latino John Travolta so I stick with him for the night. We do that group thing with his cousin + partner, where you weave around each other and it is fun-on-legs.
Must have got carried away in the moment, because I got a text on my phone today that said:
"Hey Australian girl, ready for the weekend?"
It seems that in my salsa-fuelled delight, I overlooked the fact that I:
a) had a date on Sat night
b) had two deadlines on Sunday and
c) don't like wakeboarding
when I agreed to go away with my new pals to a lake somewhere for the weekend.
Woops.
Well, Gabriela is taking me to a party tonight. That's literally all I know about it: it's a party and she's taking me. Not sure how I'll go after last night's 4am effort, but let's give it a red-hot shot.
Back on the horse. Which, I have to admit, I really like riding.
For the second time here, I had a night-time arse-grabbing incident. It is so weird.
The first time it happened was a ride-by assault a couple of months ago. He rode up, grabbed my arse and kept riding. Of course, I yelled 'F@#$ off', which was fairly ineffective because he kept stalking me for blocks until he could do it again. I yelled 'F@#$ off' again and that was that.
This time, I was walking along my street to Julia's when I heard rapid footsteps behind me. Your first thought at that point, is that you're about to get mugged. I was relieved to see that it was just a guy in a white business shirt passing me. He kept walking, then stopped ten metres in front of me, turned around and started running at me. On the way past he just swung out and slammed me in the derrier.
I stood there, stunned, my phone started ringing so I answered it. I was standing, talking, just watching him run away thinking, "You freak", when he turned around to look at me.
I hope he saw the disdain in my eyes, although from 50 metres it would have required him to be very long-sighted to do so.
I can't quite get my head around what a man gets out of grabbing a woman's bottom and then running away.
Honestly, if you were going to grab anything... wouldn't it be more lucrative to go for the handbag?
From there, I had a couple of medicinal tequilas and we headed to the salsa bar. I quickly discovered that both Julia's friends are terrible dancers, so I asked her how we were going to find people to dance with.
"You just stand near the dancefloor for about a minute,' she said, 'That's it.'
Julia's never had problems with confidence.
So, it's kind of like fishing. But, how do you know if you're going to catch a big fish, or a dud? Just luck?
"Generally only guys who dance well ask foreign girls to dance," she announces with authority.
We do the stand for a minute thing, and nothing happens. Uh oh. Is it me?
"This has never happened to me before," Julia says, "It must be you."
Julia's never had problems with confidence.
At that precise moment someone in black sails by and grabs my ... hand! So, we start dancing and as it happens, Miguel is like a latino John Travolta so I stick with him for the night. We do that group thing with his cousin + partner, where you weave around each other and it is fun-on-legs.
Must have got carried away in the moment, because I got a text on my phone today that said:
"Hey Australian girl, ready for the weekend?"
It seems that in my salsa-fuelled delight, I overlooked the fact that I:
a) had a date on Sat night
b) had two deadlines on Sunday and
c) don't like wakeboarding
when I agreed to go away with my new pals to a lake somewhere for the weekend.
Woops.
Well, Gabriela is taking me to a party tonight. That's literally all I know about it: it's a party and she's taking me. Not sure how I'll go after last night's 4am effort, but let's give it a red-hot shot.
Back on the horse. Which, I have to admit, I really like riding.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
..OUT ON ACAPULCO BAY
Ignaki, who is actually Mexican, drove me to Acapulco where a gang of his friends had decided to hole up for the long weekend.
He has an ipod with 4000 songs on it (including the Animal Song by Savage Garden ... whaaat?).So, he was in charge of driving 200kms an hour (how fast you drive depends on the bribe you're willing to pay for gettin gcaught) and I was in charge of the music.
I figured that going to Acapulco, we should probably consider playing Come Fly With Me, because of that great line about 'if you could use some exotic booze out on Acapulco Bay'.
Of course, it was on his ipod. Well, you can imagine the rude shock when I discovered that all these years, the exotic booze has actually been in a bar in far Bombay. How did that happen??
Well, I've always thought my Spanish was fine, until three days of five DF locals speakng chilango in all its rapid-fire, more-slang-than-real-words, double meaning glory.
I don't even understand the first meaning, let alone that pithy little play on words.
One guy, Alberto, could have been speaking another language for all I knew.
By the end of the weekend, I was mute. All my 'mojo' that Ignaki was so taken with, had drained out with the energy that it took to even know the basics of what we were doing and where we were going.
Highlights:
- finding Enrique Iglesias (sp?) "Escape" on the ipod AND discovering that I am not the only person in the world capable of playing it seven times in a row. Wooooo hooooo! I know know the Spanish lyrics, although the equivalent of 'soon you will find' is open to question.
- Baby O. The fresa club where guys pay $100 to get in. Of course, I didn't realise, so on Saturday when we returned, I said to Ignaki, "Come on, you've been paying for everything. Let me just pay us in."
He indicates the board, showing 800 peso cover charge. I nearly died. And proceeded to amend my offer to just paying myself in.
Of course, inside the place is a shithole, filled with people who have spent far too much time and money on their appearance (to be allowed into heaven, no matter what cover they were willing to pay).
More fake boobs in there than at a Playboy shoot... not to mention the high heels that were floating around. Everyone stands on the dancefloor, but noone dances. They all move imperceptibly and sneak glances around to see who's watching. The girls preen their perfectly curled hair. The boys... watch the girls preening their perfectly curled hair.
I was particularly taken with one guy: he was the only person 'dancing like noone was watching'. He was tall with a big nose, great moves and knew the words to the songs, but didn't look Mexican. Maybe he was from Spain.
Half an hour later I look over, and he's being hauled out by security. You know, I will always wonder what for. Ara reckons that lots of the rich girls take their body guards so if he accidentally knocked one of them with an over-enthusiastic dance move, she could have had him thrown out.
What kind of a place is this??
By the end of the night, the poor old woman whose job is to stand in the toilet mopping the floor and handing out toilet paper was getting hugged by all the little fresa girls. The senora earns less in a year than what one of them would spend on an earring, how dare they? One of them had drunk too much and was crouching in the corner, still managing to balance in her heels.
And it made me glad I'm not 23 any more. Or 24. Actually, any of the ages that I've been up to now because let's face it, even 28 had its moments. (Byron Bay, La La Land - literally - toilets. Yes yes)
He has an ipod with 4000 songs on it (including the Animal Song by Savage Garden ... whaaat?).So, he was in charge of driving 200kms an hour (how fast you drive depends on the bribe you're willing to pay for gettin gcaught) and I was in charge of the music.
I figured that going to Acapulco, we should probably consider playing Come Fly With Me, because of that great line about 'if you could use some exotic booze out on Acapulco Bay'.
Of course, it was on his ipod. Well, you can imagine the rude shock when I discovered that all these years, the exotic booze has actually been in a bar in far Bombay. How did that happen??
Well, I've always thought my Spanish was fine, until three days of five DF locals speakng chilango in all its rapid-fire, more-slang-than-real-words, double meaning glory.
I don't even understand the first meaning, let alone that pithy little play on words.
One guy, Alberto, could have been speaking another language for all I knew.
By the end of the weekend, I was mute. All my 'mojo' that Ignaki was so taken with, had drained out with the energy that it took to even know the basics of what we were doing and where we were going.
Highlights:
- finding Enrique Iglesias (sp?) "Escape" on the ipod AND discovering that I am not the only person in the world capable of playing it seven times in a row. Wooooo hooooo! I know know the Spanish lyrics, although the equivalent of 'soon you will find' is open to question.
- Baby O. The fresa club where guys pay $100 to get in. Of course, I didn't realise, so on Saturday when we returned, I said to Ignaki, "Come on, you've been paying for everything. Let me just pay us in."
He indicates the board, showing 800 peso cover charge. I nearly died. And proceeded to amend my offer to just paying myself in.
Of course, inside the place is a shithole, filled with people who have spent far too much time and money on their appearance (to be allowed into heaven, no matter what cover they were willing to pay).
More fake boobs in there than at a Playboy shoot... not to mention the high heels that were floating around. Everyone stands on the dancefloor, but noone dances. They all move imperceptibly and sneak glances around to see who's watching. The girls preen their perfectly curled hair. The boys... watch the girls preening their perfectly curled hair.
I was particularly taken with one guy: he was the only person 'dancing like noone was watching'. He was tall with a big nose, great moves and knew the words to the songs, but didn't look Mexican. Maybe he was from Spain.
Half an hour later I look over, and he's being hauled out by security. You know, I will always wonder what for. Ara reckons that lots of the rich girls take their body guards so if he accidentally knocked one of them with an over-enthusiastic dance move, she could have had him thrown out.
What kind of a place is this??
By the end of the night, the poor old woman whose job is to stand in the toilet mopping the floor and handing out toilet paper was getting hugged by all the little fresa girls. The senora earns less in a year than what one of them would spend on an earring, how dare they? One of them had drunk too much and was crouching in the corner, still managing to balance in her heels.
And it made me glad I'm not 23 any more. Or 24. Actually, any of the ages that I've been up to now because let's face it, even 28 had its moments. (Byron Bay, La La Land - literally - toilets. Yes yes)
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
FEVER
It could have been the drugs.
I got the flu yesterday and went to the pharmacy to see what I could lay my hands on. Forget your hands, your mouth.. they said. What about your arse? I'd been sick for all of six hours and they were drawing up the penicilan shots. Something about my upbringing tells me I should suffer for a while first, so I said no thanks, I'll go the traditional way.
I could hardly stand. So there I was bent over, waiting for one of the six thousand staff members to finish staring at their calculator/space and come and help me. Finally, an old bloke presented me with a smorgasboard, one for the throat, one for the flu and an anti-biotic.
Anti-biotics? Already? ....Forget the upbringing, I'll take it.
All the drugs here have active ingredients I've never heard of, which is mildly exciting.
The guy starts handwriting a receipt, for me to take five metres down the counter to the 'cashier' who will take my money, so I can take the receipt back to the original guy and get my goods.
Realised I didn't have any cash so headed off to Superama so I could take a whole lot out at once and make the mandatory $7 fee for overseas withdrawals worthwhile. That block seemed like an eternity.
Figured I'd get some bread while I was at it. Went to the bakery area, where you have to get a tray, put the bread on it, take it to a woman who asks if you want it in plastic or paper .. and then you can take it to the cashier.
Go through the cashier, who passes everything to the other guy whose job is to put it in a bag for you (for a tip) and set off back to the pharmacy, where I waited for the cashier, and then waited from someone to finish a very long conversation so they could hand me my plastic bag of assorted pills.
This redundant-job aspect of Mexico, which actually ADDS time to the transaction normally amuses me, but today I was visualising myself yelling,
"Helll-oooo? Is this a pharmacy or a mortuary??? There are SICK people here, I'm SICK. I just need DRUGS."
Blah blah blah. Well, in the end, the four-block trip took an hour. Partly because I had to stop for rests every block.
I bailed on the evening's Girls Reunion Dinner (can you have a reunion if you haven't met half of them yet?) and lay in a delirium thinking I should make it over to the computer to send of a couple of apologetic emails.
Just couldn't do it.
But then the international desk emailed to say they wanted a story on Bush in Mexico (which I had pitched 8 hours earlier when I was in relatively good health) so from the comfort of my bed I wrote the story.
Unfortunately the only place to record your voice (noise reduction) is my cupboard. Crawling into the cupboard in good health is one thing. When you're running a high fever, it's completely another.
Back to bed where I cut, converted and sent the story... and then off into a restless sleep.
The strange thing, that I cannot explain, is that at 3am I woke (I had taken Ignacio's advice to 'drink water until you are peeing out of your ears') and went to the toilet.
Yes yes, another toilet, another epiphany.
I was sitting there, suddenly overwhelmed by a sense of wellbeing. Of goodness. Like the self in me was welling up and getting bigger.
Either they put MDMA in the flu tablets over here, or I am in a good place.
I got the flu yesterday and went to the pharmacy to see what I could lay my hands on. Forget your hands, your mouth.. they said. What about your arse? I'd been sick for all of six hours and they were drawing up the penicilan shots. Something about my upbringing tells me I should suffer for a while first, so I said no thanks, I'll go the traditional way.
I could hardly stand. So there I was bent over, waiting for one of the six thousand staff members to finish staring at their calculator/space and come and help me. Finally, an old bloke presented me with a smorgasboard, one for the throat, one for the flu and an anti-biotic.
Anti-biotics? Already? ....Forget the upbringing, I'll take it.
All the drugs here have active ingredients I've never heard of, which is mildly exciting.
The guy starts handwriting a receipt, for me to take five metres down the counter to the 'cashier' who will take my money, so I can take the receipt back to the original guy and get my goods.
Realised I didn't have any cash so headed off to Superama so I could take a whole lot out at once and make the mandatory $7 fee for overseas withdrawals worthwhile. That block seemed like an eternity.
Figured I'd get some bread while I was at it. Went to the bakery area, where you have to get a tray, put the bread on it, take it to a woman who asks if you want it in plastic or paper .. and then you can take it to the cashier.
Go through the cashier, who passes everything to the other guy whose job is to put it in a bag for you (for a tip) and set off back to the pharmacy, where I waited for the cashier, and then waited from someone to finish a very long conversation so they could hand me my plastic bag of assorted pills.
This redundant-job aspect of Mexico, which actually ADDS time to the transaction normally amuses me, but today I was visualising myself yelling,
"Helll-oooo? Is this a pharmacy or a mortuary??? There are SICK people here, I'm SICK. I just need DRUGS."
Blah blah blah. Well, in the end, the four-block trip took an hour. Partly because I had to stop for rests every block.
I bailed on the evening's Girls Reunion Dinner (can you have a reunion if you haven't met half of them yet?) and lay in a delirium thinking I should make it over to the computer to send of a couple of apologetic emails.
Just couldn't do it.
But then the international desk emailed to say they wanted a story on Bush in Mexico (which I had pitched 8 hours earlier when I was in relatively good health) so from the comfort of my bed I wrote the story.
Unfortunately the only place to record your voice (noise reduction) is my cupboard. Crawling into the cupboard in good health is one thing. When you're running a high fever, it's completely another.
Back to bed where I cut, converted and sent the story... and then off into a restless sleep.
The strange thing, that I cannot explain, is that at 3am I woke (I had taken Ignacio's advice to 'drink water until you are peeing out of your ears') and went to the toilet.
Yes yes, another toilet, another epiphany.
I was sitting there, suddenly overwhelmed by a sense of wellbeing. Of goodness. Like the self in me was welling up and getting bigger.
Either they put MDMA in the flu tablets over here, or I am in a good place.
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
LEAVING ON A JETPLANE
7am, Havana airport.
It's unfortunate when notable thoughts coincide with sitting on the toilet, because it's never particularly distinguished to say "I was sitting on the toilet and suddenly I thought...". Having said that, the toilet does seem to be over-represented as a location for realisations and epiphanies.
I am sitting on the toilet when I realise a weight is slipping off me, like heavy chain-mail coming off after battle.
The almost impossible task of conducting journalism in a totalitarian country is OVER.
It is relief, to drop these defenses. I can stop worrying about losing my discs, or having them taken from me. That nagging concern that I may not be able to deliver what I have promised is gone.
It was surprisingly easy - straight through immigration, where a thin black woman failed to say hello or goodbye, or anything in between. Straight through the metal detectors, where I thanked the Lord and J that I had decided against putting my memory stick in a tampon and inserting it. My bag went through without so much as a glance.
It makes having stayed up the whole night to delete photos and hide mini-disc tracks seem a little over-zealous. I've also thrown out half the contacts I made, rather than have them discovered in the exit process.
On the toilet, I also realise that this diet of bread and honey, special as it's been, is starting to affect my bowels. I have been hungry for two weeks, sometimes managing to stifle the pangs with bread. More on that in other entries.
On the way out, I look at the clocks of the world, seeing everyone's respective times always makes you feel so profoundly far from them doesn't it?
Especially when they get your city wrong.
Two young Norweigan girls are sharing their chips and regaling me with escapades in Trinidad when a man wearing a khaki uniform and a mono-brow comes up and asks for my ID.
"Maybe this is his job, checking on people in the waiting area", I think, "much like much of the other completely redundant 'employment' like the women who press the buttons in lifts for you, or the men in Mexico who wave their arms while you're parking the car and then ask for a tip."
I figure I may as well run on this premise, so I ask him what gate we're boarding from. We have a brief discussion about this, before he tells me to come with him.
I pick up my bag, and follow him. Hopes that he's one of the redundant-job people checking on my gate start fading when we turn down into a dark flight of steps into the bowels of the airport. We reach a room filled with florescent light and people in uniform.
There are four men and a woman, sitting beside my slightly limp backpack.
"Is this yours?" he says. Mate, we both know it's mine, why ask.
He opens the bag, and goes straight for my toiletries bag. F@*k. I guess I completely underestimated the Cuban X-ray system when I put a memory stick in my conditioner bottle.
In this moment, I know exactly how Renee Lawrence must have felt. With the minor exception that I don't have nine kilos of heroin strapped to my body, and that pictures of my torso won't be flashed across national tv for the next year.
It's the feeling that someone is looking for something that you have, that you've hidden. That thing is sitting between you, just waiting to be found. I can feel my heart, I didn't know it could beat so fast. I am so hot with this panic that I want to take my jumper off. I resist.
As he goes through my toiletries bag, I thank myself for not having embedded mini-discs in the lining, as I'd considered. Originally I'd planned to put the most sensitive ones under the orthodics in my running shoes, but discovered that they made a completely unavoidable and obvious rattling sound. Then I thought about the lining, but nothing says, "I DIDN'T WANT TO BE FOUND" like something hidden in lining. It's hard to pass something off as innocuous musical recordings when it's embedded in your toiletries bag.
Finally I decided on the pockets of my jeans, which I then rolled up.
He puts down my first toiletries bag, and picks up the second one with the conditioner bottle in it. He puts it aside.
He then shifts his attention to my hand luggage. He opens my wallet, and I realise that in all my deleting and throwing out, I completely forgot about it. It's full of business cards of people I interviewed.
I watch in slow motion as the woman pulls out the business card of a formerly-jailed dissident, who's out on provisional release. If his failing health improves, or he puts a foot out of line... police can show up at his house any day and take him back to prison.
She lines up all the business cards in vertical rows, and I pick up two of them and look confused. One is of the crazy lesbian who I decided against interviewing, and the other is of the dissident. Under the watchful eye of the three men in the corner, who seem to have no role other than monitoring my reactions, I somehow manage to slip it in the pocket of my cargos.
As the woman sets about the tasks of writing down all the names and numbers of everyone in my wallet, the man goes back to my backpack. He picks up my jeans, and is about to put them aside when he feels something hard. The discs. He takes them out and asks where he can watch them. "They're just audio," I tell him, "they go in this." and I pull out my recorder. He'll find it anyway, I may as well appear as if I have nothing to hide.
I start strapping up the earpiece, but he moves on. He reads the gay sexuality mag that Raul gave me, looks at my CDs, which are blank. "Why do you have these?". I tell him I'd planned to burn CDs, and neglect to add that Cuba could do with more than two CD burners in the whole country.
The heat coming from my body is overwhelming, this experience adds a whole new meaning to 'hot under the collar'. I actually have to take my jumper off. I'm wearing a low-cut top which doesn't help, as my breasts have shrunk due to lack of food for the past two weeks.
I've also got a new appreciation for the term 'shitting myself' because I really need to go to the toilet. There's the constipation problem solved, anyway.
If I go to the toilet, they'll think I'm stashing stuff and search me. So I can't do that because they'll find the business card that's in my pocket.
The woman is making progress, every now and then she asks for clarification. "Who's this?" the man asks, holding up the snippet of paper with the Bar de las Estrellas number. On the back is the name Rojelio.
Interesting. It's a drag bar, which is actually illegal. Every now and then it gets closed down for a month or two. If the police find out they've been doing interviews, it could be bad for them.... something I clock up as cosmic justice, as they charged me $150 dollars to take recording gear in, which is probably more than I'll earn for the story.
I hated Rojelio.
He finds the poem written by the boy in the street. I ask if he'd like to translate it for me. It's my only moment of 'fuck you' and he looks at me with disdain.
When he's finished with all my things, he picks up my camera. He doesn't know how to work it, so I show him. He goes through all my photos asking about various people and then gives the camera to one of the men in the corner, for his titilation. He then settles back with my diary.
He starts at the beginning. All my innermost thoughts and fears, leaving Australia, are now in his domain. He reads and reads, and I wonder whether I talked about work back then. Filing, the international desk, all those keywords.
Looks like he's settled in for the long haul, so I ask whether there's a chance I'll miss my plane. He assures me I won't and keeps reading but doesn't laugh at any opportune moments. Tough crowd, the secret police.
Finally he announces to the others that all I write about is food and music, and closes the diary. He starts putting everything back in my bags and we have a little struggle to close the zip. He tells me to settle down or everything will fall out.
Settle down??? It's taking all my willpower not to grab my stuff and run out of here. Finally we're done.
"Wait," he says, "Give me another look at the camera."
For fuck's sake.
I've had airport security incidents before, like the time I was arriving in Vancouver from Rio and accidentally admitted to having tried drugs at some stage of my life. I spent hours watching a cute customs officer in plastic gloves turning my entire luggage inside out. But this is different. This is a feeling of complete powerlessness in the face of some great force that's reached down to pick apart every part of my life and put the pieces back together in a bigger puzzle, a puzzle that affects Cubans I've met as well. I can't lie, because they can check everything. The simple fact is that everything I've done in Cuba is outside what the regime permits, and there is a net... gradually closing around this. They'll call the people on the business cards, visit the houses, follow all the trails. And I'll never get a visa again.
Right now, that doesn't seem like such a crying shame.
Finally I am strapped up, guitar in hand, mini-discs intact and ready to walk out. He holds out my passport, I take it.. and just to remind me of the score, he holds it for a second longer and then lets go.
I ask him whether I have to 'irme corriendo' (go running) for my plane. Really, that's what I want to do anyway. He tells me maybe just irte camindo rapido (go walking quickly), and I laugh, a little too loudly.
"Sorry for the molestation," he says. And I walk out into the darkness.
On the plane, I am freezing. I assume it's the shock but there's nothing I can do to warm up. The flight is a daze of sleep and hunger and shock.
And finally, when my feet are on Mexican soil, I permit myself a sigh of relief. I buy a Starbucks coffee just to say 'fuck you, Cuba', and yes, I light up a cigarette.
The ordeal is over.
It's unfortunate when notable thoughts coincide with sitting on the toilet, because it's never particularly distinguished to say "I was sitting on the toilet and suddenly I thought...". Having said that, the toilet does seem to be over-represented as a location for realisations and epiphanies.
I am sitting on the toilet when I realise a weight is slipping off me, like heavy chain-mail coming off after battle.
The almost impossible task of conducting journalism in a totalitarian country is OVER.
It is relief, to drop these defenses. I can stop worrying about losing my discs, or having them taken from me. That nagging concern that I may not be able to deliver what I have promised is gone.
It was surprisingly easy - straight through immigration, where a thin black woman failed to say hello or goodbye, or anything in between. Straight through the metal detectors, where I thanked the Lord and J that I had decided against putting my memory stick in a tampon and inserting it. My bag went through without so much as a glance.
It makes having stayed up the whole night to delete photos and hide mini-disc tracks seem a little over-zealous. I've also thrown out half the contacts I made, rather than have them discovered in the exit process.
On the toilet, I also realise that this diet of bread and honey, special as it's been, is starting to affect my bowels. I have been hungry for two weeks, sometimes managing to stifle the pangs with bread. More on that in other entries.
On the way out, I look at the clocks of the world, seeing everyone's respective times always makes you feel so profoundly far from them doesn't it?
Especially when they get your city wrong.
Two young Norweigan girls are sharing their chips and regaling me with escapades in Trinidad when a man wearing a khaki uniform and a mono-brow comes up and asks for my ID.
"Maybe this is his job, checking on people in the waiting area", I think, "much like much of the other completely redundant 'employment' like the women who press the buttons in lifts for you, or the men in Mexico who wave their arms while you're parking the car and then ask for a tip."
I figure I may as well run on this premise, so I ask him what gate we're boarding from. We have a brief discussion about this, before he tells me to come with him.
I pick up my bag, and follow him. Hopes that he's one of the redundant-job people checking on my gate start fading when we turn down into a dark flight of steps into the bowels of the airport. We reach a room filled with florescent light and people in uniform.
There are four men and a woman, sitting beside my slightly limp backpack.
"Is this yours?" he says. Mate, we both know it's mine, why ask.
He opens the bag, and goes straight for my toiletries bag. F@*k. I guess I completely underestimated the Cuban X-ray system when I put a memory stick in my conditioner bottle.
In this moment, I know exactly how Renee Lawrence must have felt. With the minor exception that I don't have nine kilos of heroin strapped to my body, and that pictures of my torso won't be flashed across national tv for the next year.
It's the feeling that someone is looking for something that you have, that you've hidden. That thing is sitting between you, just waiting to be found. I can feel my heart, I didn't know it could beat so fast. I am so hot with this panic that I want to take my jumper off. I resist.
As he goes through my toiletries bag, I thank myself for not having embedded mini-discs in the lining, as I'd considered. Originally I'd planned to put the most sensitive ones under the orthodics in my running shoes, but discovered that they made a completely unavoidable and obvious rattling sound. Then I thought about the lining, but nothing says, "I DIDN'T WANT TO BE FOUND" like something hidden in lining. It's hard to pass something off as innocuous musical recordings when it's embedded in your toiletries bag.
Finally I decided on the pockets of my jeans, which I then rolled up.
He puts down my first toiletries bag, and picks up the second one with the conditioner bottle in it. He puts it aside.
He then shifts his attention to my hand luggage. He opens my wallet, and I realise that in all my deleting and throwing out, I completely forgot about it. It's full of business cards of people I interviewed.
I watch in slow motion as the woman pulls out the business card of a formerly-jailed dissident, who's out on provisional release. If his failing health improves, or he puts a foot out of line... police can show up at his house any day and take him back to prison.
She lines up all the business cards in vertical rows, and I pick up two of them and look confused. One is of the crazy lesbian who I decided against interviewing, and the other is of the dissident. Under the watchful eye of the three men in the corner, who seem to have no role other than monitoring my reactions, I somehow manage to slip it in the pocket of my cargos.
As the woman sets about the tasks of writing down all the names and numbers of everyone in my wallet, the man goes back to my backpack. He picks up my jeans, and is about to put them aside when he feels something hard. The discs. He takes them out and asks where he can watch them. "They're just audio," I tell him, "they go in this." and I pull out my recorder. He'll find it anyway, I may as well appear as if I have nothing to hide.
I start strapping up the earpiece, but he moves on. He reads the gay sexuality mag that Raul gave me, looks at my CDs, which are blank. "Why do you have these?". I tell him I'd planned to burn CDs, and neglect to add that Cuba could do with more than two CD burners in the whole country.
The heat coming from my body is overwhelming, this experience adds a whole new meaning to 'hot under the collar'. I actually have to take my jumper off. I'm wearing a low-cut top which doesn't help, as my breasts have shrunk due to lack of food for the past two weeks.
I've also got a new appreciation for the term 'shitting myself' because I really need to go to the toilet. There's the constipation problem solved, anyway.
If I go to the toilet, they'll think I'm stashing stuff and search me. So I can't do that because they'll find the business card that's in my pocket.
The woman is making progress, every now and then she asks for clarification. "Who's this?" the man asks, holding up the snippet of paper with the Bar de las Estrellas number. On the back is the name Rojelio.
Interesting. It's a drag bar, which is actually illegal. Every now and then it gets closed down for a month or two. If the police find out they've been doing interviews, it could be bad for them.... something I clock up as cosmic justice, as they charged me $150 dollars to take recording gear in, which is probably more than I'll earn for the story.
I hated Rojelio.
He finds the poem written by the boy in the street. I ask if he'd like to translate it for me. It's my only moment of 'fuck you' and he looks at me with disdain.
When he's finished with all my things, he picks up my camera. He doesn't know how to work it, so I show him. He goes through all my photos asking about various people and then gives the camera to one of the men in the corner, for his titilation. He then settles back with my diary.
He starts at the beginning. All my innermost thoughts and fears, leaving Australia, are now in his domain. He reads and reads, and I wonder whether I talked about work back then. Filing, the international desk, all those keywords.
Looks like he's settled in for the long haul, so I ask whether there's a chance I'll miss my plane. He assures me I won't and keeps reading but doesn't laugh at any opportune moments. Tough crowd, the secret police.
Finally he announces to the others that all I write about is food and music, and closes the diary. He starts putting everything back in my bags and we have a little struggle to close the zip. He tells me to settle down or everything will fall out.
Settle down??? It's taking all my willpower not to grab my stuff and run out of here. Finally we're done.
"Wait," he says, "Give me another look at the camera."
For fuck's sake.
I've had airport security incidents before, like the time I was arriving in Vancouver from Rio and accidentally admitted to having tried drugs at some stage of my life. I spent hours watching a cute customs officer in plastic gloves turning my entire luggage inside out. But this is different. This is a feeling of complete powerlessness in the face of some great force that's reached down to pick apart every part of my life and put the pieces back together in a bigger puzzle, a puzzle that affects Cubans I've met as well. I can't lie, because they can check everything. The simple fact is that everything I've done in Cuba is outside what the regime permits, and there is a net... gradually closing around this. They'll call the people on the business cards, visit the houses, follow all the trails. And I'll never get a visa again.
Right now, that doesn't seem like such a crying shame.
Finally I am strapped up, guitar in hand, mini-discs intact and ready to walk out. He holds out my passport, I take it.. and just to remind me of the score, he holds it for a second longer and then lets go.
I ask him whether I have to 'irme corriendo' (go running) for my plane. Really, that's what I want to do anyway. He tells me maybe just irte camindo rapido (go walking quickly), and I laugh, a little too loudly.
"Sorry for the molestation," he says. And I walk out into the darkness.
On the plane, I am freezing. I assume it's the shock but there's nothing I can do to warm up. The flight is a daze of sleep and hunger and shock.
And finally, when my feet are on Mexican soil, I permit myself a sigh of relief. I buy a Starbucks coffee just to say 'fuck you, Cuba', and yes, I light up a cigarette.
The ordeal is over.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
SHINING THROUGH DIRT
This is the view from my new room.
I spend the morning lying on my bed with thoughts churning around in my head. My room feels like a hospital ward, with harsh light and beds covered in white sheets. Everything is white in this room, except the red fabric flowers on the mantle.
Now that the police are monitoring me, I'm not exactly sure what to do next. Also, judging by my foetal position, I think I might be a bit traumatised.
I don't dare to go interviewing people now, and I have no idea how I'm going to leave with my material. I have to make backup copies, but how?
The internet rooms in hotels are monitored and cost up to $15 an hour. I have about nine hours of material. Also, I have to download an editing program and hook up my mini-disc recorder in order to transfer everything in real time, before exporting MP3s to memory stick. And I could be wrong, but I'm pretty sure this whole process might not go unnoticed.
I go and email, and wander the streets for a while in search of food. Cuba regularly fumigates all its buildings, it's choking. I'm starting to develop a conspiracy theory about what's in the billowing smoke, but really, conspiracy theories are so 1980s.
When I get home, J has rung. So I call her back and explain the situation with I a slight wobble in my voice when I get to the bit about "..and I'm not really coping".
"Use my laptop," she says. Oh my God, I'd forgotten she has one here.. this is great news. I go over and we sit talking about where to put the memory stick. I suggest my tampon idea, but she points out that I won't get through the metal detector. Thank Christ I ran it by her, that could have been really embarrassing.
The conditioner bottle seems the best idea, because everything is X-rayed on mass in the cargo luggage, so it's less likely to be detected.
I spend six hours transferring material, J goes to a BBQ. At 11pm, I call it a night and pack my things. I don't have the patience to try to flag a taxi tonight, but I have to walk some dark streets to get home, so I put the memory stick in my bra and set off.
I am walking down the median strip where the street lights are the strongest, when
I remember something Michel said, "Blah blah blah.. and you've got a good walk". Since when was your walk another factor in the equation as to whether you're sexy?
More to the point, I'm less likely to get mugged if I look like a Cuban, and you can always pick a tourist because they walk without the grace of locals. We walk as if it's a means to an end, they walk as if it's the end in itself.
So in the choking night air, I work on my walk. I notice that my head is down and I'm striding quickly so I slow my feet and sway my hips. Ironically, a more sexy walk should help abate the relentless whistles and hisses of appreciation that seem to be part of parcel of being a gringa. Then I see the street sweeper.
Last week I interviewed a street cleaner, and when he mentioned his job I assumed he went around with a broom made out of sticks like the street sweepers in Mexico. But this is a big, industrial truck with spinning bristles and water. And I need to get the sound for my story on the street sweeper.
An internal battle ensues.
"I have to get this sound."
"But I'd have to hook up my mini-disc and record in public. Not tonight, I'll do it some other time"
"But this is your only chance."
"No it's not, I'll go in the morning and find one."
" Find one? How? You know you're not going in search of a street sweeper in the morning. Besides, it's just THERE."
"But I'm soooooo tired. I actually just can't be bothered. I'll get the sound in Mexico."
"No. You won't."
Fuck it.
Despite myself, I find my hands hooking up the mic and holding it out of the bag. By now the street sweeper is far behind me, all that time I was having an internal chat, it was driving in the opposite direction.
So, I run. My legs don't want to move and my thongs flap about. I can feel the sweat on my face, mixing with the grime of a day in this pollution. My mascara has ventured from my eyelashes to the skin under my eyes. I am wearing the green dress that someone mistook for a uniform last week, when they asked me a question in the internet room.
I'm following the truck with my mic when it stops. Shit, he's seen me. I keep walking and he gets out and removes a plank of wood from the path of the truck. This gives me enough time to get ahead and record the sound perfectly.
I retrace my steps, back along the median strip.
I hear a hiss. Ignore. Hiss. Ignore. Hisssssss. I look sideways with fury, and see a young man walking across the road, carrying a notebook and pen. Great, just what I need.
Then I notice he's in civilian clothing, with one of those bags you buy in Guatemala or Ecuador. He gets to the median strip and says something, "What?"
"I need to show you what I'm writing," he says.
Oh no, maybe he's an informant. Hence, the secrecy. Am I getting paranoid.
In short, yes.
I watch as he writes, his pen moving unhurriedly across the paper. Finally he rips it off, and hands it to me. It's a poem.
Due to extenuating circumstances:
a) it's dark
b) his handwriting is illegible
c) the words are unfamiliar
I can't read it, but I suspect going through it word by word may shatter the moment. So, I assume it's a nice poem, and act accordingly. "Oh, thankyou," I say, shakily. He explains that he has had to follow me back and forth with all my changes in direction, but he seems to be coming my way so as he walks me home I get him to tell me about his life.
He's a Jewish computer programmer who's qualified in sports science but there's no work in that so he works at the Jewish centre. He's one of the few Cubans who can leave, because there's some setup with Israel that all the Jews can go back. He has a high-pitched nervous laugh that doesn't match his beautiful face, and he seems very shy.
We reach my place and I brace myself for the usual, "When will I see you again, what's your phone number, I invite you for a softdrink", but it doesn't come. He kisses my cheek and I worry that he can smell the day of trauma in the sweat and grime on me. I wonder if seeing me up close has shattered whatever the hell inspired his poetry.
My house mother translates the poem into Spanish I can understand:
You pass,
You walk the world
leaving a sensation of sweetness
Without memory
And leave in your wake
Rays of the dawn
What, I wonder, about me running down the street could inspire this? In sweat and grime, fatigue and fear. Matted hair (no water this morning) and smudged mascara.
Maybe because at the moment, when you're in flight running towards your goal with gritted teeth against all your urges to stop... maybe that's when you shine.
But who knows, maybe he writes that poem five times a day.
Friday, February 23, 2007
EL DIA MAS LARGO
I wake early, today will be busy. Yesterday I went to the festivities in Callejo de Hamel, the street dedicated to the Santeria faith. Santeria is the product of traditional african faiths morphing with Catholocism when slaves were brought to Cuba. On a Sunday, there is dancing in the street with musicians pumping out the rhumba music.
The artist who painted the whole street in amazing, complex colours is called Salvador. I met him in the Bar de Las Estrellas while I was interviewing Barbara, the only trannie there with real fake boobs. We arranged an interview for yesterday, which he unceremoniously bumped to today .. but only after I'd made the trek over to see him.
I arrive right on time, and then wait an hour for him to appear. Eventually he comes and does a fairly self-congratulatory interview, in which I have trouble pinning him on anything concrete about his faith.
I then interview Tonito, who has to wear all white clothing for a year as part of his faith. He then insists that we have to meet again, he didn't come all this way for an interview if he wasn't going to get another date. Anyone who gives an interview thinks I owe them something, usually in the vein of sex/marriage/love or money.
Speaking of which, Salvador summons me back to 'show me something'. We weave through his house and come to a room full of his pictures. I gush at a suitable level about his work, and he agrees that it's all wonderful.
"I want to exhibit this in Australia," he says, pointing at a painting somewhere up near the ceiling. "I need you to take a photo and send it to the relevant people there."
"But I'm not in the art world," I want to say, "I'm a journalist. In radio." Journalists are forgiven for knowing a small amount about everything, because that's their job, but I can't use the word journalist here, so everyone thinks I'm a specialist in their area.
He promises to get a better light, and call me when the picture is ready. "I'll pass by your house and get you," he says, "Here, write your address."
I hate the idea of anyone having all my details, but what can I do? I feel trapped. Trapped by the guy in white who's like a terrier with a very firm hold on my ankle, and trapped by the man here, who's holding out pen a paper and nodding.
I set off to my next interview. Two journalists, one of whom was jailed in the 2003 blitz. I arrive an hour early, and not having eaten yet today, decide to get food.
The only place around is a state-run pizza joint. Pizza is the staple here and comes with one topping and lashings of oil.
I join the line, and a half-hour wait ensues, during which time I eavesdrop on the woman behind me, who is trying to push in.
"Capitalists may make more money," she says, "But they have to work like dogs. What kind of a life is that?"
It's a life where they don't have to spend most of the day waiting in line for absolutely everything, only to find out that it's not in stock, that's what.
Finally we enter the pizzeria. There is a long, tiled bar with chairs lined up along it. Kind of like a military kitchen. Every place has a plastic placemat with pictures of pizzas bearing toppings that we all know will not be on our own. There is army cutlery and a glass at each place. No music, no decorations.
A waitress with a short blue skirt and fat legs goes along the line pouring water into the glasses. Two people take softdrink. We pass two foodcoated plastic menus along the line, each person decides and then hands it on.
The choices are:
- spaghetti: tuna, chorizo, ham
- pizza: tuna chorizo, ham or salami
- juice: mango, orange, pear or pineapple
- softdrink: cola, orange, lemon
I order pineapple juice. "We don't have any," the waitress says. "Ok, orange thanks."
"We don't have any."
"Ok, whatever you've got," I says. "Right, it's pear."
"And a salami pizza."
"We don't have any salami."
"Ok, chorizo." She moves on.
My popper of pear juice comes out and we spend another half hour waiting for the food. Plates of spaghetti are going past, it's over-cooked, florescent white with a blob of tomato paste on the side and three strips of ham next to a lump of grated cheese.
I'm trying to get a glimpse past the mission brown doors right in front of me, from which emerge wait-staff every now and then. Every time the door swing open, I see antiquated cooking equipment, like scales with weights and measures. There are a lot of people in the kitchen standing and doing absolutely nothing, which would tend to explain why we're all sitting out here doing absolutely nothing eg. eating.
Finally the waitress comes and says there's a problem with the pizzas. The anti-capitalist woman is actually very nice, and explains the problem to me in equally indecipherable terms. I am now 15 minutes lates so I pay for my juice and leave, very very hungry.
I walk into a loungeroom to find two middle-aged people sitting in rocking chairs, rocking. The room seems to be brimming over with books, they's piled to the ceiling all along the wall. They both look perfectly harmless, it's hard to imagine this guy spending two years in prison. He explains that he's out on provisional leave and any day the police could come and take him away. Prison sounds like it was pretty nasty, he was in with all the hardened criminals.
Now, their phones are tapped, email is read and someone is always watching the house.
"So, the government knows you are here." they add, casually.
Oh, great. Does the government know how hungry I am too?
"We just try to live as though everything we say is not being watched and listened to. We try to live a normal life, otherwise we'd just be taking pills all day for the stress."
"Why are you still talking to journalists if it's so dangerous?" I ask.
"Because I owe it to the men who are still in prison, and to my country."
I am about to be running late for my next interview when they start showing me pictures of X's arrest, lots and lots of pictures. Eventually, when I have lost all chance of reaching my the poet on time, I mention my next destination. They freeze. "Pablo Armando Fernandez?" they say, "he's incredibly important. You can't keep him waiting."
Out on the street, waiting for a cab that doesn't seem to exist, I curse the Cuban licencing system. Why are there so few taxis in this country?
Eventually I spot one across the 5-way intersection and go running in front of lanes of cars to tell the cabbie I'm desparate. Bad move. He doubles the price, takes the existing passenger to her place, and then proceeds to get lost...all the while telling me how important Pablo Armando Fernandez is.
I sprint from the car to the gate, ring the bell. Nothing. Ring again. Nothing. Oh no, he's got so pissed off he's not going to answer the door.
I ask a little delivery fellow in brown clothing and a che guevara hat what I'm doing wrong and he emphatically rings the bell, and the front door opens.
An old man walks unhurriedly towards the gate, and I start apologising profusely.
"A thousand sorries," I say, "I am so sorry to keep you waiting."
"I'll just go and get Pablo," he says.
Woops.
I enter a cool oasis of opulence, with lots of art on the wall. Pablo is quite charming, and mildly evasive on the question of his relationship with his country. I want him to talk in concrete terms, but he keeps mentioning history and ... well, history.
I leave and walk 40 minutes before finding a cab to take me home. Home, thank Christ. Home where I feel safe and happy and love the people with whom I share my house.
I realise there is something wrong the moment I enter the house. Mainly because Georgina grabs my arm and says 'sit down', before I've had a chance to even go to the toilet.
"You have to tell me the truth," she says in an urgent tone. "What are you doing with that microphone? Are you doing anything political?"
I look shocked, largely because I am.
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"The police came here this afternoon. They know your name and where you were staying. We hadn't registered you, so how did they get your name? Honestly, have you been talking to political people?"
I've always told them I'm recording music and art, because that's true. Lying by ommission was fine, but lying to their faces is something I cannot do.
"A little tiny bit...?" I venture. My stomach has dropped out. It was fine when I was only affecting myself, but these are good people and I am now affecting them. The thing is, they are not registered to have two guests and I am their second guest so they are now facing a huge fine, apart from anything else.
"You have to leave running." Georgina says, "I'm sorry, but we have to get you in a legal room. We've found a place, but don't tell them anything. Don't mention your recorder, or any interviews you do. Don't tell them anything. And wipe any interviews you have."
Are they putting me in a house of the state? Is that why I have to be so secretive?
Raul and I make the trek to the other side of the apartment block. My new room looks like a hospital ward, it's all white with harsh florescent lighting, and beds with white sheets and no covers. The house is full of smoke and my new house mum has a massive stomach that looks like there might be a baby inside, but I'm pretty sure there's not. There's an old man with a flap of material over his throat and no voice.
He tells me to sit down starts filling out my registration. In the background, staterun TV is puming out a very long and unchallenging interview with Eva Morales. Half an hour later, he is still filling out the two very small forms and I'm trying to work out what is taking so long. He takes my visa and tells me he has to keep it for the night. No way.
"Noone else had to take my visa," I say.
The only thing more difficult than understanding your second language with background noise, is understanding your second language with background noise and no voicebox. Whatever his reply is, I am still completely in the dark.
He hands me the first form to sign and I notice the 't' and 'h' are around the wrong way, so I correct it. He looks startled, then upset, and then runs a red pen through the whole thing and writes 'anulado'. Anulled. We're starting again.
Eventually we reach the second form, and he notices the mistake has been repeated. Just as he is cheerfully running a red line through it, I realise I can't take another minute of this, and tell him abruptly that I have to go and eat. It's been 24 hours since my last meal.
I don't dare leave my discs in this new place, so I take them all with me. On the way out, the old woman on the door whose job is to watch everyone who comes and goes, tells me to be careful. Going out at night is dangerous, your bag will get stolen, she says.
The electricity is out, so I walk the dark streets to Hotel Presidente, and order a club sandwich.
"There's no chicken," the charming waiter says, "How about tuna?"
Sure, anything but ham.
"What's wrong?" he asks, "You look worried."
"Just a long day," I say, and melt for a moment in his beautiful brown eyes and sincere concern. "Just a very long day."
The artist who painted the whole street in amazing, complex colours is called Salvador. I met him in the Bar de Las Estrellas while I was interviewing Barbara, the only trannie there with real fake boobs. We arranged an interview for yesterday, which he unceremoniously bumped to today .. but only after I'd made the trek over to see him.
I arrive right on time, and then wait an hour for him to appear. Eventually he comes and does a fairly self-congratulatory interview, in which I have trouble pinning him on anything concrete about his faith.
I then interview Tonito, who has to wear all white clothing for a year as part of his faith. He then insists that we have to meet again, he didn't come all this way for an interview if he wasn't going to get another date. Anyone who gives an interview thinks I owe them something, usually in the vein of sex/marriage/love or money.Speaking of which, Salvador summons me back to 'show me something'. We weave through his house and come to a room full of his pictures. I gush at a suitable level about his work, and he agrees that it's all wonderful.
"I want to exhibit this in Australia," he says, pointing at a painting somewhere up near the ceiling. "I need you to take a photo and send it to the relevant people there."
"But I'm not in the art world," I want to say, "I'm a journalist. In radio." Journalists are forgiven for knowing a small amount about everything, because that's their job, but I can't use the word journalist here, so everyone thinks I'm a specialist in their area.
He promises to get a better light, and call me when the picture is ready. "I'll pass by your house and get you," he says, "Here, write your address."
I hate the idea of anyone having all my details, but what can I do? I feel trapped. Trapped by the guy in white who's like a terrier with a very firm hold on my ankle, and trapped by the man here, who's holding out pen a paper and nodding.
I set off to my next interview. Two journalists, one of whom was jailed in the 2003 blitz. I arrive an hour early, and not having eaten yet today, decide to get food.
The only place around is a state-run pizza joint. Pizza is the staple here and comes with one topping and lashings of oil.
I join the line, and a half-hour wait ensues, during which time I eavesdrop on the woman behind me, who is trying to push in.
"Capitalists may make more money," she says, "But they have to work like dogs. What kind of a life is that?"
It's a life where they don't have to spend most of the day waiting in line for absolutely everything, only to find out that it's not in stock, that's what.
Finally we enter the pizzeria. There is a long, tiled bar with chairs lined up along it. Kind of like a military kitchen. Every place has a plastic placemat with pictures of pizzas bearing toppings that we all know will not be on our own. There is army cutlery and a glass at each place. No music, no decorations.
A waitress with a short blue skirt and fat legs goes along the line pouring water into the glasses. Two people take softdrink. We pass two foodcoated plastic menus along the line, each person decides and then hands it on.
The choices are:
- spaghetti: tuna, chorizo, ham
- pizza: tuna chorizo, ham or salami
- juice: mango, orange, pear or pineapple
- softdrink: cola, orange, lemon
I order pineapple juice. "We don't have any," the waitress says. "Ok, orange thanks."
"We don't have any."
"Ok, whatever you've got," I says. "Right, it's pear."
"And a salami pizza."
"We don't have any salami."
"Ok, chorizo." She moves on.
My popper of pear juice comes out and we spend another half hour waiting for the food. Plates of spaghetti are going past, it's over-cooked, florescent white with a blob of tomato paste on the side and three strips of ham next to a lump of grated cheese.
I'm trying to get a glimpse past the mission brown doors right in front of me, from which emerge wait-staff every now and then. Every time the door swing open, I see antiquated cooking equipment, like scales with weights and measures. There are a lot of people in the kitchen standing and doing absolutely nothing, which would tend to explain why we're all sitting out here doing absolutely nothing eg. eating.
Finally the waitress comes and says there's a problem with the pizzas. The anti-capitalist woman is actually very nice, and explains the problem to me in equally indecipherable terms. I am now 15 minutes lates so I pay for my juice and leave, very very hungry.
I walk into a loungeroom to find two middle-aged people sitting in rocking chairs, rocking. The room seems to be brimming over with books, they's piled to the ceiling all along the wall. They both look perfectly harmless, it's hard to imagine this guy spending two years in prison. He explains that he's out on provisional leave and any day the police could come and take him away. Prison sounds like it was pretty nasty, he was in with all the hardened criminals.
Now, their phones are tapped, email is read and someone is always watching the house.
"So, the government knows you are here." they add, casually.
Oh, great. Does the government know how hungry I am too?
"We just try to live as though everything we say is not being watched and listened to. We try to live a normal life, otherwise we'd just be taking pills all day for the stress."
"Why are you still talking to journalists if it's so dangerous?" I ask.
"Because I owe it to the men who are still in prison, and to my country."
I am about to be running late for my next interview when they start showing me pictures of X's arrest, lots and lots of pictures. Eventually, when I have lost all chance of reaching my the poet on time, I mention my next destination. They freeze. "Pablo Armando Fernandez?" they say, "he's incredibly important. You can't keep him waiting."
Out on the street, waiting for a cab that doesn't seem to exist, I curse the Cuban licencing system. Why are there so few taxis in this country?
Eventually I spot one across the 5-way intersection and go running in front of lanes of cars to tell the cabbie I'm desparate. Bad move. He doubles the price, takes the existing passenger to her place, and then proceeds to get lost...all the while telling me how important Pablo Armando Fernandez is.
I sprint from the car to the gate, ring the bell. Nothing. Ring again. Nothing. Oh no, he's got so pissed off he's not going to answer the door.
I ask a little delivery fellow in brown clothing and a che guevara hat what I'm doing wrong and he emphatically rings the bell, and the front door opens.
An old man walks unhurriedly towards the gate, and I start apologising profusely.
"A thousand sorries," I say, "I am so sorry to keep you waiting."
"I'll just go and get Pablo," he says.
Woops.
I enter a cool oasis of opulence, with lots of art on the wall. Pablo is quite charming, and mildly evasive on the question of his relationship with his country. I want him to talk in concrete terms, but he keeps mentioning history and ... well, history.
I leave and walk 40 minutes before finding a cab to take me home. Home, thank Christ. Home where I feel safe and happy and love the people with whom I share my house.
I realise there is something wrong the moment I enter the house. Mainly because Georgina grabs my arm and says 'sit down', before I've had a chance to even go to the toilet.
"You have to tell me the truth," she says in an urgent tone. "What are you doing with that microphone? Are you doing anything political?"
I look shocked, largely because I am.
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"The police came here this afternoon. They know your name and where you were staying. We hadn't registered you, so how did they get your name? Honestly, have you been talking to political people?"
I've always told them I'm recording music and art, because that's true. Lying by ommission was fine, but lying to their faces is something I cannot do.
"A little tiny bit...?" I venture. My stomach has dropped out. It was fine when I was only affecting myself, but these are good people and I am now affecting them. The thing is, they are not registered to have two guests and I am their second guest so they are now facing a huge fine, apart from anything else.
"You have to leave running." Georgina says, "I'm sorry, but we have to get you in a legal room. We've found a place, but don't tell them anything. Don't mention your recorder, or any interviews you do. Don't tell them anything. And wipe any interviews you have."
Are they putting me in a house of the state? Is that why I have to be so secretive?
Raul and I make the trek to the other side of the apartment block. My new room looks like a hospital ward, it's all white with harsh florescent lighting, and beds with white sheets and no covers. The house is full of smoke and my new house mum has a massive stomach that looks like there might be a baby inside, but I'm pretty sure there's not. There's an old man with a flap of material over his throat and no voice.
He tells me to sit down starts filling out my registration. In the background, staterun TV is puming out a very long and unchallenging interview with Eva Morales. Half an hour later, he is still filling out the two very small forms and I'm trying to work out what is taking so long. He takes my visa and tells me he has to keep it for the night. No way.
"Noone else had to take my visa," I say.
The only thing more difficult than understanding your second language with background noise, is understanding your second language with background noise and no voicebox. Whatever his reply is, I am still completely in the dark.
He hands me the first form to sign and I notice the 't' and 'h' are around the wrong way, so I correct it. He looks startled, then upset, and then runs a red pen through the whole thing and writes 'anulado'. Anulled. We're starting again.
Eventually we reach the second form, and he notices the mistake has been repeated. Just as he is cheerfully running a red line through it, I realise I can't take another minute of this, and tell him abruptly that I have to go and eat. It's been 24 hours since my last meal.
I don't dare leave my discs in this new place, so I take them all with me. On the way out, the old woman on the door whose job is to watch everyone who comes and goes, tells me to be careful. Going out at night is dangerous, your bag will get stolen, she says.
The electricity is out, so I walk the dark streets to Hotel Presidente, and order a club sandwich.
"There's no chicken," the charming waiter says, "How about tuna?"
Sure, anything but ham.
"What's wrong?" he asks, "You look worried."
"Just a long day," I say, and melt for a moment in his beautiful brown eyes and sincere concern. "Just a very long day."
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
IT'S A MAN'S WORLD
Squirmer's found someone who'll pay more for the room. So, without ceremony, she gets me out of bed and packing my bags before I can recover for the previous night's glory.
The maid's daughter was in the house last night. She has exactly the same hair as mine, and her mother proudly explained that it had been down below her waist before she cut it off.
"The heat?" I ask.
"No, she was using too much shampoo and conditioner. Too expensive."
So, as I'm packing I set aside my big bottle of shampoo for curly hair, and go to the next room to give it to her. I can hear her in the bathroom so I accidentally burst in her on the toilet, peeing. She's surprisingly casual about this, and delighted at the shampoo.
"Pantene," she says, "that's wonderful. I'll have to show it to Irma, or she'll accuse me of stealing it. My husband is a doctor, he works in the hospital across the road. And I've got a lovely son, he's very serious... you'll have to come to our house. It's ugly, but you're most welcome."
Doctors in Cuba earn a fraction of what taxi drivers do, it's all upside down and back to front here. Margorie has to wipe the floors and take the shit from awful, ignorant Irma.
She's still casually mentioning her son when I leave. Marrying your way out of Cuba is a hell of a lot safer than braving the Florida Straights.
I trudge a few blocks to a large apartment building, with peeling green paint and louvers on all the windows. There's a black woman waiting outside, with pitch-black hair and grey roots even though she can't be more than about 35. She takes me up to my room and tells me not to mention to the other man staying here that I'm only paying 25CUC because he's paying 40CUC. And if I get mugged, I can't go to the police. She's only registered for one room, so there'll be a massive fine if the government finds out.
I am immediately comfortable. The room has glorious old wooden furniture, the sort of rocking chair that would cost hundreds in a Surrey Hills antique store. There is a steady and very intrusive hum of airconditioners from the next building, and I can't work out why I keep sneezing.
"Oh, that's the fumigation," she says, "The government does it every Saturday for an hour."
Fumigating for what?
"Oh, insects or something."
Insects or free thought. Stop it.
I tell Georgina I'm going to a drag show tonight and she says I have to talk to her cousin. Uh oh. Awful Irma was always insisting I take her relatives out at night as 'friends for hire', and I don't need a friend for hire tonight thankyou very much.
The cousin, Raul appears from nowhere and starts chatting. I try to politely extricate myself but find myself drawn to him. We go and sit in the sunroom, with louvers that look out over all of Havana to the ocean. I'm wondering why he's got such an interest in my drag story, until he announces that he's gay. Brilliant. A man I can hang around with, without him trying to marry or shag me. This is a match made in heaven.
Raul insists on coming to the drag show, and bringing three friends. We now officially have a possie.
I've arranged my interviews for 9pm, so I decide to take a taxi rather than wait for the three friends to pick us up.
"No, no," Raul assures me, "They are five minutes away."
Half an hour later, things on the street corner are feeling a little desparate. Finally the car appears an we are propelled into a world of hair product. Now I understand what they've been doing for the last half hour, putting on perfume.
The old man driving the car must be about 65. His boyfriend is 18, and absolutely gorgeous. The other guy has yellow hair, and he's used the left-over peroxide on his eyebrows.
There's a battle of wills happening in the front over air temperature and music choice. As we set off for Lawton, it becomes gradually obvious that noone has any idea where we're going. The guy with orange eyebrows seems to have the best idea, but half an hour later, we're still not even in the suburb.
There is much discussion about the police. How to avoid the police, where the police are most likely to be. Later, I ask Raul why we were avoiding them, and he says that four gay guys going to an illegal drag club probably wouldn't have gone down well.
Still, Lawton is somewhere far off in the distance when the direction-asking stage of the journey begins. I watch the little clock on the dash leave 9pm further and further back in the past.
Generally it goes like this:
animated discussion-> mention of cops -> someone spots an innocent bystander -> car pulls over -> innocent bystander helpfully explains directions for at least five minutes with hand signals and waving of arms (waving of arms is to signify how far away Lawton is) -> we set off.
This process begins again every two blocks, and I'm not exaggerating. I am completely powerless.
I am gradually becoming extremely irritable.
Finally we arrive. The bar is actually a house, wrapped so tightly in fairy lights that it's like a beacon.
I am over an hour late, but I figure that's ok because I still have an hour to interview.
Rojelio (pron: Ro-hell-ee-o) treats me the appropriate level or sickly sweetness that you'd expect from someone who's just made 100CUC out of you.
I head into the makeup room - it's just like a hairdressing salon. Long benches with mirrors and some chairs, with lots of very manly looking men standing in front of them.
Drag IS amazing. That a man can wipe almost all traces of his sexuality is truly incredible.
I am interviewing a man with massive lips lined by almost black lipliner, and hair around his nipples. His voice is a normal man's voice, and he's pleasant.
"Now tell me if this question is too private," I say, "But exactly how do you get rid of the lump?"
These guys all get around in bikinis and the like, with no sign of their penises. And I know for a fact that they haven't had sex-change operations.
"Oh, not too private at all," he says. He's standing in stockings with a thick set of flesh coloured bike pantish-but-stronger thing over the top. He pulls open the bike pants, so we can see down his front, and half-crouches.
"So, you push it down," he says, pushing it down, "And then, stand up. And it stays between your legs. See? Completely flat??"
Oh. Glad I asked. I don't have a penis, but did somebody say ouch?
Jesus Christ, it'd be less painful to just chop it off. Sex change operations are illegal in Cuba, so this is the only option.
I then move onto an interview with Barbara. She is more than happy to chat, she makes up at home so is ready to rock'n'roll.
"Your breasts are amazing," I tell her, "Congratulations."
She's standing in the doorway to the house, where all the guests are entering. "I know," she says, "Look at this..."
And she lifts her silver sequined top to show a lacy bra encasing two perfect and enviable breasts.
Barbara and I chat for ages. She had her operation at dawn in a hospital, and now has a boyfriend, although he still has a wife and child somewhere else. Unlike the rest of the cast here, she spends the night and day as a woman, in woman's clothing with woman's hair. Just not a woman's voice.
I am just setting off downstairs to see the transformation process, when Rojelio appears. Or Moodswing Rojelio, as he will hence be known. Sure, my mic's phallic, but at the sight of it he starts flapping his arms around and shooshing me up the stairs. As in, UP the stairs.
I'd love to describe the miracle of trans-formation, but all I can give you is the before and after. Mofo. 100CUC, that's $150 AUD, and I get two lousy interviews, virtually no pics.
Rojelio can take his gold pincers and go to 'jel(io).
I head back upstairs and take in the show. Who knew drag could be so fun when you've got people to enjoy it with.
At one stage, my first interviewee starts ripping off his eyelashes, then his fake nails and then his wig, then his dress. Oh my god, it's a strip show with a twist.
This is considered incredibly artistic and met with violent applause. I admit, it was really quite exhiliarating.
A fat guy sends a drink over and we're all perving on the incredibly gorgeous gay guy on the other side of the room.
On my way to the toilet, the fat dude greets me and pulls me down for a kiss - which I assume to be the usual Cuban cheek-kiss greeting, until he plants his big, wet lips all over my mouth. I extricate myself feeling violated, and then have to explain myself to the lesbians at the next table, who are berating me for letting him do it.
Oh this is all too much. In the toilet line, I find myself standing next to Mr Gorgeous Gay Man and the transexual from the table behind me instructs me to tell him that she's in love. With him. God, who's not.
I do so.
He turns out to be incredibly charming and proceeds to chat me up. Cripes, even gay guys can't resist women here.
Finally, it's my turn for the toilet. I walk in, and find myself looking at a bowel that is COVERED in blood. That's right, blood. Who died in here?
I walk back out, to find the Mr Gorgeous Guy of Questionable Sexuality explaining himself to his boyfriend.
This is all getting too much. We all end up on the dancefloor, with one of the lesbians fondling my waist during the human trains (you know where everyone runs around cheerfully clutching the person in front of them?) and before I know it I'm being dragged out to the car.
It's a man's world, for this noone's girl.
The maid's daughter was in the house last night. She has exactly the same hair as mine, and her mother proudly explained that it had been down below her waist before she cut it off.
"The heat?" I ask.
"No, she was using too much shampoo and conditioner. Too expensive."
So, as I'm packing I set aside my big bottle of shampoo for curly hair, and go to the next room to give it to her. I can hear her in the bathroom so I accidentally burst in her on the toilet, peeing. She's surprisingly casual about this, and delighted at the shampoo.
"Pantene," she says, "that's wonderful. I'll have to show it to Irma, or she'll accuse me of stealing it. My husband is a doctor, he works in the hospital across the road. And I've got a lovely son, he's very serious... you'll have to come to our house. It's ugly, but you're most welcome."
Doctors in Cuba earn a fraction of what taxi drivers do, it's all upside down and back to front here. Margorie has to wipe the floors and take the shit from awful, ignorant Irma.
She's still casually mentioning her son when I leave. Marrying your way out of Cuba is a hell of a lot safer than braving the Florida Straights.
I trudge a few blocks to a large apartment building, with peeling green paint and louvers on all the windows. There's a black woman waiting outside, with pitch-black hair and grey roots even though she can't be more than about 35. She takes me up to my room and tells me not to mention to the other man staying here that I'm only paying 25CUC because he's paying 40CUC. And if I get mugged, I can't go to the police. She's only registered for one room, so there'll be a massive fine if the government finds out.
I am immediately comfortable. The room has glorious old wooden furniture, the sort of rocking chair that would cost hundreds in a Surrey Hills antique store. There is a steady and very intrusive hum of airconditioners from the next building, and I can't work out why I keep sneezing.
"Oh, that's the fumigation," she says, "The government does it every Saturday for an hour."
Fumigating for what?
"Oh, insects or something."
Insects or free thought. Stop it.
I tell Georgina I'm going to a drag show tonight and she says I have to talk to her cousin. Uh oh. Awful Irma was always insisting I take her relatives out at night as 'friends for hire', and I don't need a friend for hire tonight thankyou very much.
The cousin, Raul appears from nowhere and starts chatting. I try to politely extricate myself but find myself drawn to him. We go and sit in the sunroom, with louvers that look out over all of Havana to the ocean. I'm wondering why he's got such an interest in my drag story, until he announces that he's gay. Brilliant. A man I can hang around with, without him trying to marry or shag me. This is a match made in heaven.
Raul insists on coming to the drag show, and bringing three friends. We now officially have a possie.
I've arranged my interviews for 9pm, so I decide to take a taxi rather than wait for the three friends to pick us up.
"No, no," Raul assures me, "They are five minutes away."
Half an hour later, things on the street corner are feeling a little desparate. Finally the car appears an we are propelled into a world of hair product. Now I understand what they've been doing for the last half hour, putting on perfume.
The old man driving the car must be about 65. His boyfriend is 18, and absolutely gorgeous. The other guy has yellow hair, and he's used the left-over peroxide on his eyebrows.
There's a battle of wills happening in the front over air temperature and music choice. As we set off for Lawton, it becomes gradually obvious that noone has any idea where we're going. The guy with orange eyebrows seems to have the best idea, but half an hour later, we're still not even in the suburb.
There is much discussion about the police. How to avoid the police, where the police are most likely to be. Later, I ask Raul why we were avoiding them, and he says that four gay guys going to an illegal drag club probably wouldn't have gone down well.
Still, Lawton is somewhere far off in the distance when the direction-asking stage of the journey begins. I watch the little clock on the dash leave 9pm further and further back in the past.
Generally it goes like this:
animated discussion-> mention of cops -> someone spots an innocent bystander -> car pulls over -> innocent bystander helpfully explains directions for at least five minutes with hand signals and waving of arms (waving of arms is to signify how far away Lawton is) -> we set off.
This process begins again every two blocks, and I'm not exaggerating. I am completely powerless.
I am gradually becoming extremely irritable.
Finally we arrive. The bar is actually a house, wrapped so tightly in fairy lights that it's like a beacon.
I am over an hour late, but I figure that's ok because I still have an hour to interview.
Rojelio (pron: Ro-hell-ee-o) treats me the appropriate level or sickly sweetness that you'd expect from someone who's just made 100CUC out of you.
I head into the makeup room - it's just like a hairdressing salon. Long benches with mirrors and some chairs, with lots of very manly looking men standing in front of them.
Drag IS amazing. That a man can wipe almost all traces of his sexuality is truly incredible.
I am interviewing a man with massive lips lined by almost black lipliner, and hair around his nipples. His voice is a normal man's voice, and he's pleasant.
"Now tell me if this question is too private," I say, "But exactly how do you get rid of the lump?"
These guys all get around in bikinis and the like, with no sign of their penises. And I know for a fact that they haven't had sex-change operations.
"Oh, not too private at all," he says. He's standing in stockings with a thick set of flesh coloured bike pantish-but-stronger thing over the top. He pulls open the bike pants, so we can see down his front, and half-crouches.
"So, you push it down," he says, pushing it down, "And then, stand up. And it stays between your legs. See? Completely flat??"
Oh. Glad I asked. I don't have a penis, but did somebody say ouch?
Jesus Christ, it'd be less painful to just chop it off. Sex change operations are illegal in Cuba, so this is the only option.
I then move onto an interview with Barbara. She is more than happy to chat, she makes up at home so is ready to rock'n'roll.
"Your breasts are amazing," I tell her, "Congratulations."
She's standing in the doorway to the house, where all the guests are entering. "I know," she says, "Look at this..."
And she lifts her silver sequined top to show a lacy bra encasing two perfect and enviable breasts.
Barbara and I chat for ages. She had her operation at dawn in a hospital, and now has a boyfriend, although he still has a wife and child somewhere else. Unlike the rest of the cast here, she spends the night and day as a woman, in woman's clothing with woman's hair. Just not a woman's voice.
I am just setting off downstairs to see the transformation process, when Rojelio appears. Or Moodswing Rojelio, as he will hence be known. Sure, my mic's phallic, but at the sight of it he starts flapping his arms around and shooshing me up the stairs. As in, UP the stairs.
I'd love to describe the miracle of trans-formation, but all I can give you is the before and after. Mofo. 100CUC, that's $150 AUD, and I get two lousy interviews, virtually no pics.
Rojelio can take his gold pincers and go to 'jel(io).
I head back upstairs and take in the show. Who knew drag could be so fun when you've got people to enjoy it with.
At one stage, my first interviewee starts ripping off his eyelashes, then his fake nails and then his wig, then his dress. Oh my god, it's a strip show with a twist.
This is considered incredibly artistic and met with violent applause. I admit, it was really quite exhiliarating.
A fat guy sends a drink over and we're all perving on the incredibly gorgeous gay guy on the other side of the room.
On my way to the toilet, the fat dude greets me and pulls me down for a kiss - which I assume to be the usual Cuban cheek-kiss greeting, until he plants his big, wet lips all over my mouth. I extricate myself feeling violated, and then have to explain myself to the lesbians at the next table, who are berating me for letting him do it.
Oh this is all too much. In the toilet line, I find myself standing next to Mr Gorgeous Gay Man and the transexual from the table behind me instructs me to tell him that she's in love. With him. God, who's not.
I do so.
He turns out to be incredibly charming and proceeds to chat me up. Cripes, even gay guys can't resist women here.
Finally, it's my turn for the toilet. I walk in, and find myself looking at a bowel that is COVERED in blood. That's right, blood. Who died in here?
I walk back out, to find the Mr Gorgeous Guy of Questionable Sexuality explaining himself to his boyfriend.
This is all getting too much. We all end up on the dancefloor, with one of the lesbians fondling my waist during the human trains (you know where everyone runs around cheerfully clutching the person in front of them?) and before I know it I'm being dragged out to the car.
It's a man's world, for this noone's girl.
Monday, February 19, 2007
WHAT A DRAG
Friday, I make my way to a phone booth and call the Bar de las Estrellas.
A charming young fellow answers the phone and tells me it's fine to show up around 8pm to chat with the muchachas.
This time I find a cab that will do it for 5CUC, and Francisco turns out to be a lovely non-intrusive fellow who takes his cues from my limited conversation-making.
I go upstairs and meet the lovely George, who's got a mousey face and yellow streaks in his hair.
He introduces me to the DJ, Jose, who also has yellow streaks in his. The barman's hair is ALL yellow. Haven't they heard of toner here?
We all chat for a hour or so, as I wait for some magical sign to go downstairs and meet the muchachas.
Finally, George summons me to come and meet Rojelio (pronounced Ro-hell-ee-o). The name is said with some reverence.
I walk into a hairdressing salon, on the bottom level. There is a hairy-backed man just starting the makeup process. Looks like he might be a while.
Sitting in a makeup chair, but more giving the impression of a king (or queen) in a throne, is a very small, very angry-looking man with .. yellow hair.
He looks like a very camp Cuba Gooding Junior, with gold coating on each of his pincer teeth.
Rojelio. Now I get the yellow hair epidemic.
"You are under no circumstances, to bring ANY recording gear into the bar," he says, his gold pinchers flashing under the flouros.
"No microphones, no interviews. Nothing."
What about the good old days in Australia, where contacts were one keystroke away and anyone with anything resembling recording equipment was treated as an old friend.
Getting to this moment has taken days of dark streets, dodgy areas, detective skills, persistence... and I'm getting the 'under no circumstances' line?
I think we're like guitar strings. Without any tension we're slack and out of tune, we don't really fulfill our purpose. But at this very moment, I feel stretched so tight that I will snap.
Rojelio's nostrils are flaring, so I take a deep breath and tell him that under no circumstances do I want to do anything to upset him and his muchachas.
He keeps talking, mentioning something very subtle and roundabout regarding money. I'm sorry, I can't do subtle and roundabout in Spanish. It's blunt or nothing.
I look to George for clarification. "What, can't she even speak Spanish?" Rojelio explodes.
"Yes, but I don't speak Fuckwit," I want to reply. "Yes, but Cuban Spanish is a little different," I explain.
George explains that the Bar de las Estrellas is not actually legal, and gets shut down systematically so there would need to be a financial incentive for me to endanger their status.
"Well, let's talk terms," I say.
"Not here," Rojelio spits, "In private."
We arrive in a little room on the second level with a lot of red velvet couches, and china ornaments. Dalmations, angels, clocks, they're all china. There is a lot of light, coming from the many lamps that light the room. There's a wine-rack of liquor, which I consider stealing to recoup costs.
He disappears into a small room to yell at three of his staff for 15 minutes, while I wait outside with his mobile, which is ringing incessantly.
After I've explained how much I will earn for the story, and how much I have to pay for the air ticket, accommodation, and costs, not to mention labor, Rojelio goes to consider his price.
An hour later, George returns with the terms. It will be $150 dollars just to get in the door, more than I will earn for the story.
He knows he's got me by the proverbials and he's milking it for all it's worth.
It's too late tonight to interview, so I head upstairs and buy a beer. Just in case they haven't got enough cash out of my already. The yellow-haired gang all keep my company until swelling 50s instrumental music heralds the beginning of the show.
It's actually pretty good, but I am so drained it's all I can do to keep an enraptured expression on my face in case Rojelio looks over. At 1am I can't do it any more, so I ask George to call a cab.
"No, no, there are cabs outside," he reassures me.
All the cabbies refuse to take me except an apparently-mute old man, who's leaning on a little new white car. I start to open the door when he points across the road.
The car he's pointing at looks more like one of those car bodies you see in a wrecker's yard. It's an old Chevy and I am shocked to discover it starts. There is a shuddering sound that suggests that at any moment the whole casing around us will just fall apart, and lots of squeaking.
Now, my sense of direction isn't that good, but I know backstreets when I see them. This is not the way I got here - either time.
Fuck. He's taking me around the corner where one of his mates is waiting to help him mug me. I sit rigid in flight-or-fight readiness, but really I know I'll opt for hand-it-over-and-then-how-am-I-going-to-get-home when it happens.
It's eery, peering through the curtain of cracks in the windscreen at these dark, deserted backstreets.
Five minutes later I still haven't been mugged so start formulating a back-up theory. Maybe he's taking the backstreets because he doesn't have a taxi licence (pay through the nose to carry passengers) and is avoiding the police.
Actually, yeeeeah. As if this car could get anything resembling a road-worthy .. let alone a taxi licence.
I settle back for the ride, and decide to capitalise on the great sound value and take a recording the miracle that is This Car In Motion. I very subtly move the microphone out of my bag, and make sure he can't see it.
When we arrive, he says his first words for the entire journey, "Pay me here, very discreetly, and don't draw any attention to yourself."
Judging by his car, I doubt he's got enough money to pay the fire for getting busted without a taxi licence. I pay, I drag myself up into Squirmer's Den, and I sleep. Soundly.
A charming young fellow answers the phone and tells me it's fine to show up around 8pm to chat with the muchachas.
This time I find a cab that will do it for 5CUC, and Francisco turns out to be a lovely non-intrusive fellow who takes his cues from my limited conversation-making.
I go upstairs and meet the lovely George, who's got a mousey face and yellow streaks in his hair.
He introduces me to the DJ, Jose, who also has yellow streaks in his. The barman's hair is ALL yellow. Haven't they heard of toner here?
We all chat for a hour or so, as I wait for some magical sign to go downstairs and meet the muchachas.
Finally, George summons me to come and meet Rojelio (pronounced Ro-hell-ee-o). The name is said with some reverence.
I walk into a hairdressing salon, on the bottom level. There is a hairy-backed man just starting the makeup process. Looks like he might be a while.
Sitting in a makeup chair, but more giving the impression of a king (or queen) in a throne, is a very small, very angry-looking man with .. yellow hair.
He looks like a very camp Cuba Gooding Junior, with gold coating on each of his pincer teeth.
Rojelio. Now I get the yellow hair epidemic.
"You are under no circumstances, to bring ANY recording gear into the bar," he says, his gold pinchers flashing under the flouros.
"No microphones, no interviews. Nothing."
What about the good old days in Australia, where contacts were one keystroke away and anyone with anything resembling recording equipment was treated as an old friend.
Getting to this moment has taken days of dark streets, dodgy areas, detective skills, persistence... and I'm getting the 'under no circumstances' line?
I think we're like guitar strings. Without any tension we're slack and out of tune, we don't really fulfill our purpose. But at this very moment, I feel stretched so tight that I will snap.
Rojelio's nostrils are flaring, so I take a deep breath and tell him that under no circumstances do I want to do anything to upset him and his muchachas.
He keeps talking, mentioning something very subtle and roundabout regarding money. I'm sorry, I can't do subtle and roundabout in Spanish. It's blunt or nothing.
I look to George for clarification. "What, can't she even speak Spanish?" Rojelio explodes.
"Yes, but I don't speak Fuckwit," I want to reply. "Yes, but Cuban Spanish is a little different," I explain.
George explains that the Bar de las Estrellas is not actually legal, and gets shut down systematically so there would need to be a financial incentive for me to endanger their status.
"Well, let's talk terms," I say.
"Not here," Rojelio spits, "In private."
We arrive in a little room on the second level with a lot of red velvet couches, and china ornaments. Dalmations, angels, clocks, they're all china. There is a lot of light, coming from the many lamps that light the room. There's a wine-rack of liquor, which I consider stealing to recoup costs.
He disappears into a small room to yell at three of his staff for 15 minutes, while I wait outside with his mobile, which is ringing incessantly.
After I've explained how much I will earn for the story, and how much I have to pay for the air ticket, accommodation, and costs, not to mention labor, Rojelio goes to consider his price.
An hour later, George returns with the terms. It will be $150 dollars just to get in the door, more than I will earn for the story.
He knows he's got me by the proverbials and he's milking it for all it's worth.
It's too late tonight to interview, so I head upstairs and buy a beer. Just in case they haven't got enough cash out of my already. The yellow-haired gang all keep my company until swelling 50s instrumental music heralds the beginning of the show.
It's actually pretty good, but I am so drained it's all I can do to keep an enraptured expression on my face in case Rojelio looks over. At 1am I can't do it any more, so I ask George to call a cab.
"No, no, there are cabs outside," he reassures me.
All the cabbies refuse to take me except an apparently-mute old man, who's leaning on a little new white car. I start to open the door when he points across the road.
The car he's pointing at looks more like one of those car bodies you see in a wrecker's yard. It's an old Chevy and I am shocked to discover it starts. There is a shuddering sound that suggests that at any moment the whole casing around us will just fall apart, and lots of squeaking.
Now, my sense of direction isn't that good, but I know backstreets when I see them. This is not the way I got here - either time.
Fuck. He's taking me around the corner where one of his mates is waiting to help him mug me. I sit rigid in flight-or-fight readiness, but really I know I'll opt for hand-it-over-and-then-how-am-I-going-to-get-home when it happens.
It's eery, peering through the curtain of cracks in the windscreen at these dark, deserted backstreets.
Five minutes later I still haven't been mugged so start formulating a back-up theory. Maybe he's taking the backstreets because he doesn't have a taxi licence (pay through the nose to carry passengers) and is avoiding the police.
Actually, yeeeeah. As if this car could get anything resembling a road-worthy .. let alone a taxi licence.
I settle back for the ride, and decide to capitalise on the great sound value and take a recording the miracle that is This Car In Motion. I very subtly move the microphone out of my bag, and make sure he can't see it.
When we arrive, he says his first words for the entire journey, "Pay me here, very discreetly, and don't draw any attention to yourself."
Judging by his car, I doubt he's got enough money to pay the fire for getting busted without a taxi licence. I pay, I drag myself up into Squirmer's Den, and I sleep. Soundly.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
WILD TRANNIE CHASE
Before coming here, I read a very interesting article about a drag show in Cuba. The article kept the bar anonymous but mentioned the suburb so I figure I can put it together when I get there. So, I've promised a story on drag queens in Cuba.
For a few days now I have been asking around and the conversation remains consistently the same:
M: Have you heard of a drag club around here?
C: What?
M: You know, women who dress up as men.
C: (recoils) Oh, transvestites.
M: That's right.
C: No, they're banned here.
M: Well, what about a gay bar where I can ask around.
C: No, gay bars are banned too.
I'm not getting far. My new house mother is the awful Irma, whose names suits her perfectly. A cross between irksome and squirmer. She lies without hestitation, even when she doesn't need to and treats the cleaning lady like shit. She's sickly sweet with guests.
I start to mention that I need to go to Lawton but before I even get to the bit about men dressing up as women she screeches:
"Lawton!!!! You can't go to Lawton!!!! You can't go out at night. Not on your own. I mean, go to hotels, tourist hotels. But nowhere else. But LAWTON!!! There is a problem with drunks there. You'll be robbed."
Yes, Lawton is the lowest socio-economic suburb in Havana. I bet Squirma's never even been there.
There's a fine line between investing enough faith in humankind to receive the dividends, and gambling all your money on a bad hand.
I walk that line, from my house... down some dark streets where I can see families through the windows soaking up propoganda that's being churned out of the television. Kids playing on the front steps. Dogs runnign down the road. People buying beer at canteens.
I reach the malecon, an eerie stretch where a big forest of flags flaps in the wind and soldiers line the street.
I turn off to the Hotel Nationale and approach the last driver in a line of old souped up American cars that take tourists around.
He too has never heard of this bar, but proceeds to ask every man in the line until he returns with the information. His name is Miguel and he has a son and a grandson called Michel so we are firm friends by now.
"Street 16, across from the auto station." he announces proudly.
I think I'm in love.
I find a cab, and Orlando quotes me 7CUC to make the trip. He's got a pencil-thin moustache and a Billy Ocean fetish.
"Get Into My Car" is actually playing when I ... get into his car. We share a very special "When the Going Gets Tough", and he even lets me record some natural sound.
When we reach Destination Lawton, Orlando asks me what we're looking for? A house?
"Well, sort of. It's a drag show."
"A what?"
"Transvestites."
He giggles and starts asking passes-by where to find the poofs.
We find a house covered in fairy lights. Given that Cuba has an obsession with saving electricity, I'm not sure how they're working this level of energy consumption, really it's like the beacon of Lawton, but whatever.
I peer through the glare at a delightful woman who tells me the show is on tomorrow night and of course I can come and record some interviews. She gives me a little sliver of paper with the name Rojelio on the back, and I head back to Orlando.
"You have to go back anyway, Orlando. So what price can you do for me for the return trip?"
"Seven CUC."
"But...."
"I could be home with my wife and child. It's 7 or nothing"
On the return, Orlando showcases Kool and the Gang, as well as a glorious "Cherish the love", to which he sings falsetto with reckless abandon.
"This song always makes me feel like crying," he announces.
I happily pay the seven CUC: the cab ride has been my most enjoyable experience as yet in Cuba. I walk back to the house thinking Cuba may be homophobic, but it's far more camp than it realises.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
FROZEN IN TIME
The buildings stay the same, and generations move between their walls. They grow up, they grow old. And the buildings remain.
Friday, January 12, 2007
Thursday, January 11, 2007
YING AND YANG
How can I feel equal measures of despair and hope at once. Joy at work breakthroughs (discovered a wonderful EP) and wretchedness at the head-against-brick-wall aspect.
I remember I promised some herba buena for the girl's night tonight (trans: good herb, but not in a smoking sense) ... to put in the mojitos, it's kind of like mint. But where would I find it, that is the question.
With the usual great trepidation, I called Ara's house. Her dad always answers the phone, and we have the problem that he doesn't feel the need to open his mouth when he speaks. Often you see his wife and daughters looking at each other mouthing 'what did he just say?"
The conversation usually goes like this:
"Hi, it's Michelle.. how are you?"
"Blawshwishubulabahibuniasd" which I take to mean "Good thanks"
"Oh good"
"Quisesmweithensdawekrj?" which I take to mean "And you?"
"Good thanks."
Then, the dreaded moment when he tries to make conversation.
" Wweinbihtrw gvmiwerghab erfds fd?"
".... um, pardon?"
"werwgjdfkgerisdnkwdhgiewry?"
Uh oh. When will Senor Casas learn that this is a pointless exercise? I just want to talk to Ara. Please?
Eventually I ascertain that he's secured me a guitar - part of my elaborate plan to enter Cuba - and is asking when I'll drop around and collect it. 'Dropping around' is a three-hour round trip plus a couple of hours for kissing everyone hello and goodbye.
I thank him profusely and he takes mercy on me and goes to find Ara. Thank. The. Lord.
Senor Casas doesn't seem to like anything much, but I'm pretty sure he likes me despite (or perhaps because of) my apparent stupidity. He doesn't open his mouth, but he does sometimes smile at me through his moustache-on-steroids. I suspect he's actually laughing at me, but either way, let's say I make him smile.
Moving on. Ara says I can find herbs at the market - which I already knew so I'm not sure why I called. I set off.
In this particular moment, I have just finished a particularly unpleasant work-related exchange with one of the sources of despair. I feel wretched, so through shit-coloured glasses, when a man actually says to my face 'Wow, hooooooola. Lady." I have a vision of myself grabbing his shirtcollar, putting my face an inch from his and saying,
"Get a f@#&ing eyefull.. did you? Human being, mate. That's right. I am a human being for whom Wow is not a sign of respect motherf@#*er."
I settle for remaining expressionless and after he's passed, scowling.
Then I see two little boys playfighting and they're delightful. Even despite the fact that I know they're honing their macho skills and in 20 years they will be the 'Wow' guy... showing women no respect, I find myself smiling.. then smiling at their proud mum... and then the world in general.
Despair. Hope. Wretched. Joy.
I secure a massive bunch of herba buena at my favourite market stall, belonging to the people from downstairs in the apartment block. Juanita whispered conspiratorially that she's got something of mine.
What's that? I bellow.
She recoils. Puts her hand near her mouth and then mentions the word for sustainer. Oh, right, she's got my bra. I can tell she knows it's mine because I"m the only person in the whole block with boobs that small but whatever.
Our whole roof is dedicated to washing. There are cages for each apartment, so that you can shut your washing in to dry. On this basis, I have no idea who my underpants always end up in someone else's possession. There'll be a knock at the door, and there's the little girl from downstairs holding a pair saying 'they fell down'.
So, to take stock. I have a bunch of the good herb, a prodigal bra, and a guitar coming my way.
Hope wins.
Señor Casas gets up close and personal with Marina...
I remember I promised some herba buena for the girl's night tonight (trans: good herb, but not in a smoking sense) ... to put in the mojitos, it's kind of like mint. But where would I find it, that is the question.
With the usual great trepidation, I called Ara's house. Her dad always answers the phone, and we have the problem that he doesn't feel the need to open his mouth when he speaks. Often you see his wife and daughters looking at each other mouthing 'what did he just say?"
The conversation usually goes like this:
"Hi, it's Michelle.. how are you?"
"Blawshwishubulabahibuniasd" which I take to mean "Good thanks"
"Oh good"
"Quisesmweithensdawekrj?" which I take to mean "And you?"
"Good thanks."
Then, the dreaded moment when he tries to make conversation.
" Wweinbihtrw gvmiwerghab erfds fd?"
".... um, pardon?"
"werwgjdfkgerisdnkwdhgiewry?"
Uh oh. When will Senor Casas learn that this is a pointless exercise? I just want to talk to Ara. Please?
Eventually I ascertain that he's secured me a guitar - part of my elaborate plan to enter Cuba - and is asking when I'll drop around and collect it. 'Dropping around' is a three-hour round trip plus a couple of hours for kissing everyone hello and goodbye.
I thank him profusely and he takes mercy on me and goes to find Ara. Thank. The. Lord.
Senor Casas doesn't seem to like anything much, but I'm pretty sure he likes me despite (or perhaps because of) my apparent stupidity. He doesn't open his mouth, but he does sometimes smile at me through his moustache-on-steroids. I suspect he's actually laughing at me, but either way, let's say I make him smile.
Moving on. Ara says I can find herbs at the market - which I already knew so I'm not sure why I called. I set off.
In this particular moment, I have just finished a particularly unpleasant work-related exchange with one of the sources of despair. I feel wretched, so through shit-coloured glasses, when a man actually says to my face 'Wow, hooooooola. Lady." I have a vision of myself grabbing his shirtcollar, putting my face an inch from his and saying,
"Get a f@#&ing eyefull.. did you? Human being, mate. That's right. I am a human being for whom Wow is not a sign of respect motherf@#*er."
I settle for remaining expressionless and after he's passed, scowling.
Then I see two little boys playfighting and they're delightful. Even despite the fact that I know they're honing their macho skills and in 20 years they will be the 'Wow' guy... showing women no respect, I find myself smiling.. then smiling at their proud mum... and then the world in general.
Despair. Hope. Wretched. Joy.
I secure a massive bunch of herba buena at my favourite market stall, belonging to the people from downstairs in the apartment block. Juanita whispered conspiratorially that she's got something of mine.
What's that? I bellow.
She recoils. Puts her hand near her mouth and then mentions the word for sustainer. Oh, right, she's got my bra. I can tell she knows it's mine because I"m the only person in the whole block with boobs that small but whatever.
Our whole roof is dedicated to washing. There are cages for each apartment, so that you can shut your washing in to dry. On this basis, I have no idea who my underpants always end up in someone else's possession. There'll be a knock at the door, and there's the little girl from downstairs holding a pair saying 'they fell down'.
So, to take stock. I have a bunch of the good herb, a prodigal bra, and a guitar coming my way.
Hope wins.
Señor Casas gets up close and personal with Marina...
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
MICS, TRAINS AND AUTOMOBILES
I admit, it was a mistake to put my mini-mic half-in the pocket of my jeans on the day of the Virgin of Guadalupe celebrations. By the time I realised that it was all-out of the pocket, a casualty of gravity, it had probably been trampled under the feet/knees of many of the six million pilgrams with whom I was sharing the day.
Either that, or a puzzled fruit stall owner was turning it over in his palm, trying to work out what it was.
This leaves me in a difficult situation - how can someone entering Cuba on a tourist visa explain an industrial-sized microphone as part of their trip? There's the obvious explanation that they're trying to flout Cuban media bans, or the less obvious explanation that it's a guitar-learning tool (please refer to guitar strapped to tourist's back)..
If the customs officials are anything like the heavily-moustached security guard at the Cuban embassy, where I am picking up my tourist visa, I should have no troubles with the latter explanation. They'll be too busy trying to guess my nationality and telling me I'm too pretty to be Australian, I should be Canadian or American.
I resist the urge to tell him that on that premise, he should be Khasakstani (sp?) while his eyes slide from my face, down to my legs and back.
"But you've got a Cuban body," he says approvingly.
(Trans: my hips have not yet realised I go to the gym every day)
Note to self: wear tight jeans when attempting to enter Cuba.
I leave the security guard and his moustache mulling over my nationality/arse, and grab a cab to the Sony shop, where I am hoping to find a slightly less-conspicuous microphone. Taxis in Mexico are bright green and white VW beetles, and you can hail one in an average of 27 seconds, they're everywhere.
I enter my cab-with-a-difference and instantly notice the unusual-yet-pleasant aroma of coconut oil. It seems to be emanating from the hair of my cabbie, whose registration certificate proudly proclaims to be JOSE - complete with picture of Jose with perfectly-oiled hair.
Jose's taken some care with his cab. For a start, he's ripped out the original short-wave radio and replaced with with a shiny new MP3 player, which is currently piping out cheeful salsa music. I feel my foot beginning to tap.
All VW cabs have had their front passenger seat ripped out as well, to give passengers more leg-space, so I've got a full view of the car. The rear vision mirror is framed with synthetic fluff, which obscures most of the mirror itself from vision. The glass peaking out from behind the fluff is covered with black writing that says "Nathalia", let's assume that's Jose's girlfriend.
The windscreen in front of Jose's face is also covered in black writing, which I can't quite decipher. At best, visibility is limited.
So it is with great relief that I notice two pictures on the dash: one of Mary, one of Jesus. Another magnet-style picture of Mary is stuck to the glove box. Rosary beads extend from the fluff of the rear-vision mirror. Thank god, I was starting to this we had some safety issues, what with not being able to see the road in front or behind, but we'll be fine.
It's good to see that was well as being devout, Jose is pragmatic. In the passenger area I notice a first aid kit, and a fire extinguisher. Between the seats there is a roll of toilet paper (I am not going to say that's for the passengers who are shitting themselves) and a coin box.
After enjoying a pleasant conversation-free ride, we arrive at the Sony store.
The man behind the counter informs me there are no Sony mini-mics in all of Mexico. But in case I want to check for myself, he draws me a map of the electronics zone in the middle of town.
My next cab (yes, I am too lazy to find the metro stop) is accessory-free and we have a full view of the road. My cabbie takes the mud-map, peers at it with his eyes squinted, turns it upside down a couple of times, and then tells me he's going to hang onto it for a while.
Hmm, considering that the directions are for a main street in the centre of town, I'm a little concerned, but we make it there just fine. He revently hands back the map and I jump into tech-heads heaven.
Cables, grids, phones, cameras, plugs, wires, recorders, adaptors, things-I-can't-identify.. they're all here. Everything EXCEPT Sony mini-mics, as I discover over the course of the next 80 minutes/33 shops.
Finally I admit defeat and succumb to the hunger pains I've been ignoring for quite a while. I head for the most popular taco stall that's surrounded by dozens of men, eating off plastic plates and gulping down softdrinks. Each one looks at me as if I am an alien. Gringa. Alone. In the electronics zone. Eating tacos. On the street.
Weird.
The thing I like about Mexicans is that if they have something to say to someone a distance away, they yell. Drivers of cars idling on the curb bellow questions to stall-owners several metres back from the street, people on mobile behave in a similar manner, as though distance was in real terms.
I yell my order over the swarm of eaters to the green-eyed taco man, and two tacos miraculously appear virtually before I've finished speaking. They're sensational, although I still miss the presence of salad.
The juice man aka the seafood man at the next stall has 'invited' me for some prawns. (trans: free food). As I sit eating an exquisite combination of prawn, avocado, tomato salsa and lime from a plastic cup, he explains to me that if I help him sell property I'll get a good commission.
O-kay.
After a pleasant conversation about handicapped kids (his nephew who works there knows some) I head for the subway clutching the pen and lollies he's given me. The pen says 'Meave Seafood wishes you a Happy New Year'.
So, despite lacking a (crucial) mini-mic, I have a full belly, a fall-back career and a new pen.
I guess tomorrow I'll be guitar shopping.
Either that, or a puzzled fruit stall owner was turning it over in his palm, trying to work out what it was.
This leaves me in a difficult situation - how can someone entering Cuba on a tourist visa explain an industrial-sized microphone as part of their trip? There's the obvious explanation that they're trying to flout Cuban media bans, or the less obvious explanation that it's a guitar-learning tool (please refer to guitar strapped to tourist's back)..
If the customs officials are anything like the heavily-moustached security guard at the Cuban embassy, where I am picking up my tourist visa, I should have no troubles with the latter explanation. They'll be too busy trying to guess my nationality and telling me I'm too pretty to be Australian, I should be Canadian or American.
I resist the urge to tell him that on that premise, he should be Khasakstani (sp?) while his eyes slide from my face, down to my legs and back.
"But you've got a Cuban body," he says approvingly.
(Trans: my hips have not yet realised I go to the gym every day)
Note to self: wear tight jeans when attempting to enter Cuba.
I leave the security guard and his moustache mulling over my nationality/arse, and grab a cab to the Sony shop, where I am hoping to find a slightly less-conspicuous microphone. Taxis in Mexico are bright green and white VW beetles, and you can hail one in an average of 27 seconds, they're everywhere.
I enter my cab-with-a-difference and instantly notice the unusual-yet-pleasant aroma of coconut oil. It seems to be emanating from the hair of my cabbie, whose registration certificate proudly proclaims to be JOSE - complete with picture of Jose with perfectly-oiled hair.
Jose's taken some care with his cab. For a start, he's ripped out the original short-wave radio and replaced with with a shiny new MP3 player, which is currently piping out cheeful salsa music. I feel my foot beginning to tap.
All VW cabs have had their front passenger seat ripped out as well, to give passengers more leg-space, so I've got a full view of the car. The rear vision mirror is framed with synthetic fluff, which obscures most of the mirror itself from vision. The glass peaking out from behind the fluff is covered with black writing that says "Nathalia", let's assume that's Jose's girlfriend.
The windscreen in front of Jose's face is also covered in black writing, which I can't quite decipher. At best, visibility is limited.
So it is with great relief that I notice two pictures on the dash: one of Mary, one of Jesus. Another magnet-style picture of Mary is stuck to the glove box. Rosary beads extend from the fluff of the rear-vision mirror. Thank god, I was starting to this we had some safety issues, what with not being able to see the road in front or behind, but we'll be fine.
It's good to see that was well as being devout, Jose is pragmatic. In the passenger area I notice a first aid kit, and a fire extinguisher. Between the seats there is a roll of toilet paper (I am not going to say that's for the passengers who are shitting themselves) and a coin box.
After enjoying a pleasant conversation-free ride, we arrive at the Sony store.
The man behind the counter informs me there are no Sony mini-mics in all of Mexico. But in case I want to check for myself, he draws me a map of the electronics zone in the middle of town.
My next cab (yes, I am too lazy to find the metro stop) is accessory-free and we have a full view of the road. My cabbie takes the mud-map, peers at it with his eyes squinted, turns it upside down a couple of times, and then tells me he's going to hang onto it for a while.
Hmm, considering that the directions are for a main street in the centre of town, I'm a little concerned, but we make it there just fine. He revently hands back the map and I jump into tech-heads heaven.
Cables, grids, phones, cameras, plugs, wires, recorders, adaptors, things-I-can't-identify.. they're all here. Everything EXCEPT Sony mini-mics, as I discover over the course of the next 80 minutes/33 shops.
Finally I admit defeat and succumb to the hunger pains I've been ignoring for quite a while. I head for the most popular taco stall that's surrounded by dozens of men, eating off plastic plates and gulping down softdrinks. Each one looks at me as if I am an alien. Gringa. Alone. In the electronics zone. Eating tacos. On the street.
Weird.
The thing I like about Mexicans is that if they have something to say to someone a distance away, they yell. Drivers of cars idling on the curb bellow questions to stall-owners several metres back from the street, people on mobile behave in a similar manner, as though distance was in real terms.
I yell my order over the swarm of eaters to the green-eyed taco man, and two tacos miraculously appear virtually before I've finished speaking. They're sensational, although I still miss the presence of salad.
The juice man aka the seafood man at the next stall has 'invited' me for some prawns. (trans: free food). As I sit eating an exquisite combination of prawn, avocado, tomato salsa and lime from a plastic cup, he explains to me that if I help him sell property I'll get a good commission.
O-kay.
After a pleasant conversation about handicapped kids (his nephew who works there knows some) I head for the subway clutching the pen and lollies he's given me. The pen says 'Meave Seafood wishes you a Happy New Year'.
So, despite lacking a (crucial) mini-mic, I have a full belly, a fall-back career and a new pen.
I guess tomorrow I'll be guitar shopping.
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
IT'S APPLES AND ORANGES..
There's been a breakthrough with work. I found it on the email this morning.
More excitingly, there's been a breakthrough at the juice shop. Somehow, I found myself there this afternoon, despite the unofficial embargo I had placed on it after the last incident. I only realised when I was standing at the counter.
In exceptionally good humour, I approached the situation by asking what juices were available. Orange and mandarin, came the reply.
"What about apple?" I say, looking wistfully at the apples.
"No." Sometimes if you leave enough silence after an answer you don't like, the person will explain the reason for the answer, or in rare cases, change it altogether.
Not the juice lady. We stand staring at each other for so long that an innocent bystander says, "Come on, give her some apple," to which she replies that the apple juicer is broken. Why didn't she just say so?
Hmmm. The options.
"Ok, can I please have an orange juice?"
"What about mandarin, do you want some mandarin??"
What the heck, let's do it. Let's do the mix.
Then, the breakthrough. While she is happily splattering me with juice, she asks if I live nearby. It's disappointing in the face of such a step forward, to have to explain that I can't understand what she's saying when there's noise (the juicer) (it's a quirk of second languages, background noise is the enemy)
She finishes juicing and asks again, in my haste to reply, I say,
"Yes, I live a block away, that's why I like the juices here." Proximity, as opposed to quality. Woops. Well, it certainly isn't for the ambience.
I decide to take things another step and ask if the 27 pesos I"m carrying is enough to get a papaya as well?
"Chica!" she replies, which I construe as a rebuff at having the audacity to suggest such a thing. Turns out she's saying I can have a small one, same word, different meaning.
I retreat from the juice shop with my half-litre of orange and mandarin, 2 bananas and a papaya wondering if maybe, just maybe, I'm one of those twisted individuals who thrives on rudeness. I keep going back don't I?
More excitingly, there's been a breakthrough at the juice shop. Somehow, I found myself there this afternoon, despite the unofficial embargo I had placed on it after the last incident. I only realised when I was standing at the counter.
In exceptionally good humour, I approached the situation by asking what juices were available. Orange and mandarin, came the reply.
"What about apple?" I say, looking wistfully at the apples.
"No." Sometimes if you leave enough silence after an answer you don't like, the person will explain the reason for the answer, or in rare cases, change it altogether.
Not the juice lady. We stand staring at each other for so long that an innocent bystander says, "Come on, give her some apple," to which she replies that the apple juicer is broken. Why didn't she just say so?
Hmmm. The options.
"Ok, can I please have an orange juice?"
"What about mandarin, do you want some mandarin??"
What the heck, let's do it. Let's do the mix.
Then, the breakthrough. While she is happily splattering me with juice, she asks if I live nearby. It's disappointing in the face of such a step forward, to have to explain that I can't understand what she's saying when there's noise (the juicer) (it's a quirk of second languages, background noise is the enemy)
She finishes juicing and asks again, in my haste to reply, I say,
"Yes, I live a block away, that's why I like the juices here." Proximity, as opposed to quality. Woops. Well, it certainly isn't for the ambience.
I decide to take things another step and ask if the 27 pesos I"m carrying is enough to get a papaya as well?
"Chica!" she replies, which I construe as a rebuff at having the audacity to suggest such a thing. Turns out she's saying I can have a small one, same word, different meaning.
I retreat from the juice shop with my half-litre of orange and mandarin, 2 bananas and a papaya wondering if maybe, just maybe, I'm one of those twisted individuals who thrives on rudeness. I keep going back don't I?
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